YanZi's Message
Title: Bloody cough
Dear ALL
I'm down with a bloody cough and sore throat. This morning I was literally speechless. How lucky that I don't have to perform any time soon.
I have been rather busy with my personal stuff. Sorting out my things can take a hundred years. I'm slow and I procrastinate. I'm also self-indulgent. Which means that going through my drawers will eventually lead to watching TV and then falling asleep on the sofa. I don't know how long I can go on like that. I figure if I stay alone I might eventually rot on my sofa, camouflaging my existence with the sofa cover leaving only bits of potato chips for evidence. Then I'm eventually forgottten and they imagine me to elope to a faraway place , "leaving all that material and mundane fame behind". When in fact, I was eaten by the c-ockroaches. Eaten by my own laziness.
It has been a struggle, to choose between lounging and doing nothing, or get up and do something. Everyday. ever since I start my supposed break, "Why should you do anything if you are on a break?" "Why are you wasting your time?" Voices in my head. I don't know where my conscience starts or the devil ends.
Sometimes I spout so much rubbish, I feel like I can write a book. Because you all will probably read it ahahahaha and it doesn't even have to make sense ahahahaha.
I'm joking of course, how can I find time to write? I still
have 'nothing' to do.
Love
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