YanZi's Message

YanZi's Message

25 June 2004

THE MESSAGE BELOW IS NOT THE ORIGINAL YANZI MESSAGE, IT WAS TRANSLATED BY ME FROM A TRANSLATED MANDARIN MESSAGE BY A KIND YANZI FAN! PARDON MY ENGLISH, IT'S NOT AS GOOD AS YANZI'S...

Title: I SHOULD WRITE HERE MORE OFTEN

DEAR ALL,

Yesterday, on the plane to HK, I bumped into a whole bevy of female reporters. I was alone. They looked at me with this glint in their eyes, like they just struck a small fortune.

"Where are you going?" They asked.
"Going back to Singapore, but I had to stop by Hong Kong to transfer." I replied plainly.

Later, it was a short, relaxing but awkward moment. By stroke of luck they chanced upon me but weren’t too excited about it. I'm neither going home from a relaxing holiday nor going home from a hot date. At that time, I really find my boring life style kind of embarrassing. What am I doing?

Besides watching "Dream City" replays, recently all my time was taken by either my work, to and from on the plane and reading. However those enthusiastic services on my flights were a very different scenario.

And, a few days ago, I dreamt that I was smoking, my conscience was slowing seeping into a very dreamy state, and my entire life became a string of "What should I do?" I should work out, I should read more books, I should practice more on perfecting my mandarin, I should wear dresses, I should be more image-conscious, I should understand the people around me more, I should be the real me... (Quite ironic isn't it?)

But the lucky thing is that, these "I should do" deeds, I did them all already, however, these are not all. I should eat like a king, I should enjoy a massage, I should reward myself, when I'm frustrated, and I should scream and shout. When I'm happy, I should laugh out loud, I should have "If not for..." mentality, I should have my pride and know satisfaction.

Alright, I should go for a slow jog now. See you for now, my friends.

love,
yz

Adapted From,
Money-Minded yanzi.com.tw

Mandarin Version:

親愛的大家

昨天，在飛往香港的班機上，我遇到了一群女記者。看到我獨自一個人，她們的眼睛閃閃發光地打量著我，就好像她們撿到一大筆錢的樣子。

「妳要去哪裡？」她們問我。
「回新加坡去，要在香港轉機。」我這樣回答。

然後就是一陣短暫、輕微、尷尬的沈默，她們巧遇我的運氣結果竟是這麼微不足道。我既不是要去度過一個放縱的假期，也不是要赴一個熱情的約會，更沒有要去瘋狂大採購。那時候我還真的為我無趣的生活感到羞愧哩。我到底都在做┦颤N呀？

除了看「慾望城市」影集外，最近我的時間大概都被工作、搭飛機和看書給佔滿了。打發過於熱情的機場服務員對我來說已經算是很不一樣的事情了。

還有前幾天，我夢到我在抽煙，我全部的幻想都變成了夢境，我的生活變成了一連串的「我應該怎樣怎樣……」：我應該要健身、我應該看更多書、我應該把華語練得更好、我應該穿襪子、我應該讓自己看起來更體面、我應該待人處事更圓融、我應該做真實的自己……（很諷刺吧）

幸運的是，這些「應該」我都已經做到了，而且還不只如此，我應該像一個國王般吃美食、我應該去做按摩、我應該獎勵我自己、當我生氣的時候就應該大叫、當我開心的時候就應該大笑、我應該能有我的「如果不是……」與懊悔、我應該能有我的堅持與滿足。

好了，我應該去慢跑了。再見，朋友們。