insatiable lonely dread,
that this is truly the end,
although it is what's best
we did not pass the test.
I have become blame and fault
Destiny's end result
our looking glass is broken
pieces of jagged glass tokens
of what we have forsaken
What if we are mistaken
in our unwillingness to break
both of our souls at stake
yet it is I who holds the weight
of this heartache.
Once when I walked forward,
away from sadness and horror
I vowed to not look back
to those that blindly attack
queen of the fearings i climb
constantly looking behind
feet slipping on the edge
of that which i regret.
our knights stare each other down
deeming us both ridiculous clowns
unwilling to step together
into this never never,
holding onto our own projections
and pain of past rejections
lashing out to throw to the other
words that choke and smother
I will embrace my own admission
my willingness to give my submission
to one that lifts his arms to hold
one who is warm, who shields me from cold.
i will lay at his feet in release,
for he will be my uttermost peace.
i will not give myself to lions,
to one who leaves my sad eyes crying.
I will not surrender to hatred,
To one who only wishes to cage me.
I will not be the bulls eye center
For arrows aimed to pierce my tender
heart as it lays open upon your palm,
at your request when you vowed it no harm.
He has chosen to lose on love,
for he cannot strip away the glove
that keeps his hand from knowing touch,
the softness of my lashes as they brush
his lips to place a tender kiss.
Hardness keeps his solitude,
As my head turns to refuse
To be the one that wears this noose
of blame each time we differ,
The silouhette of my figure
glowing soft in your candlelight
holding your thoughts in the moonlight.
You are the one in control,
It is my lock in your hand you hold.
Can you take a step forward to turn the key,
And with loving kindness release me?