* Ready for HHN to End! *

I am uber tired. For the last few days I have worked almost non-stop and have gotten no sleep. I am depressed because I don't know what happened between me and Mike, I feel lonely again and everything for the most part just sucks. There is this new guy Mike, but I don't really think that him and I are right for eachother. Yes, I think he is hot has hell, but I just can't see myself with him. I think it's more of a self-esteem issue, I think he's too good for me. But he is a cool guy and he's in winter guard, so I find that really cool. I just know I'm not over my Mike G.(ex). I just wish he'd call, leave a message, e-mail, text, SOMETHING....I want to know why he decided that I'm too good for him. I just have a gut feeling there is something more to the story, but he's not telling me. I need to hear the truth so I can move on, and I'm not accepting "I was starting to fall in love with you and I'm not ready for that" as an excuse. If you run from the ones you love, you leave them and yourself miserable. Well, I'm just going to take things slow. If things hit off with this new Mike, then great, if not, then that's fine too. I just need to get some new friends and a new life.

~James