| Friday, March 29, 2002 At 8:30 a.m. I went back to see Susan for my second mapping. I wasn�t as excited this time as I expected more of the same thing I went through the day before. And I was right�it was exactly the same. Susan gave me 2 more programs. I had one ACE and one SPEAK programmed the day before. This time she gave me a second ACE and SPEAK program. As I walked around the building, I noticed that on the SPEAK program I couldn�t even hear voices. So, Susan deleted that program and just gave me another ACE program. Right now I have 3 ACE programs and 1 SPEAK program. By the way, I am using the Sprint Processor until I get my new 3G BTE. Hopefully I will get the first one in May and the 2nd one in 6 months (after everyone on the waiting list gets theirs) and then I will turn this Sprint BWP back in. I would rather have 2 BTE�s than 1 BTE and 1 BWP. So now I am on my way back home. I am leaving my hearing aid off for now and just listening to all this �junk noise� with my C.I. I will turn my hearing aid on if I really need to understand what someone is saying to me though. Susan said to try to leave it off as much as possible, but it�s okay to turn it on to understand when I really need to. |
| I�m trying to be positive and not so negative, but it�s very hard as I�ve never been through this process before and have no guarantee that it will get better. It helps to talk to others who have been here and can testify to the fact that it is really bad at first, but indeed does get better. Yesterday I kept thinking�what have I done? Did I go through all of this for nothing? I knew going into this that there was always a possibility that it wouldn�t work and I felt I had nothing to lose and everything to gain. Even if it never gets better than my hearing aid�I have lost nothing. My hearing in my right ear is the same as before�GONE! I am SO glad that I only had one side (my right side) implanted at this time. At least I can still use my hearing aid in my left ear. The only thing that I have to complain about is the hard time I had after my surgery. But, if it gets better�it will have been worth it. My next mapping is on April 19th and then I will go back 2 weeks later on May 3rd. I�ve heard that the 3rd mapping is much better�we�ll see. |