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I thought I'd lost you.
I regret what I said,
But you left before I could say
I'm sorry.
You went away,
Not knowing how much
I hated you for leaving me.

I suppose it was my fault.
I threw everything you felt safe to give me
Right back in your face.

Oh, I embraced it for a while,
Held it tight in fingers
Weakened by the fear
Of never knowing what love is.
But baby, I pushed you away
Before my fingers could find their strength
And latch on to you so tight
That you'd never leave my side.
You never knew.

I thought I was saving my heart.
Instead I was only breaking it.

�.You're back.
Oh Sweet Angel, you're back.
I haven't lost you.
You say
"God, how I've missed you,"
And though I don't want to,
I believe you.

God, how I've missed you too.
I'm so sorry.
For all I did,
For all I will do without even knowing
Exactly what I'll do.

I love you.
I always did, I always will.
Even if you leave,
I'll be here waiting,
My heart open wide.

Just don't say goodbye.
I can't handle goodbye.
Goodbye means I've lost you forever.
Which means my hands
Finally went numb from the pain.

Never say goodbye.
It's the only absolution
I never want to hear.

Michelle Elizabeth Bernard

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