So Very
Alone, so very alone�
I do nothing but stare into space--
Stare until everything fades
And only darkness remains,
Waiting, wishing, hoping,
For someone to release me
From the pain
Of needing you so much
That it�s killing me inside�
Dark, so very dark�
I see nothing but illusions of your face
In the broken windows
Of my broken palace,
So captivated, so enchanted, so mystified,
By the shards of your image
That I reach out and pray
For the glass to pierce my skin
And wake me from this nightmare.
Cold, so very cold�
I feel nothing but the ice around my heart�
Frozen and dying, each heartbeat weaker
Than the one before, and I know I�m
Bleeding, crying, dying,
Tormented by voices in my mind
Whispering bittersweet nothings
Of your betrayal and apathy
For my wounded soul.
Afraid, so very afraid�
I fear the demons of the night
That you unleashed from their cage
When you loved me and left me�
Haunting me, chasing me, teasing me,
Until I scream
For release
From the chains
That come with loving you.
Alone, so very alone,
In a world where
No one could possibly love me
As much as I love them�
So I wait, wish, hope,
For an end to the darkness,
The silence, the cold, the fear,
And the solitude in which I dwell,
All because I love you.
Michelle Elizabeth Bernard
�12-17-99