The walls are falling around me,
There�s nowhere to hide.
There�s no one here
To stand by my side.
The tears fall softly
Like drops of morning rain.
I need to feel alive
Even if it�s by causing myself pain.
For what dead man feels pain?
It lets me know that I�m alive.
Though I�m not sure if it�s worth
Trying to survive.
Numbness is all consuming,
I can�t feel anything.
Am I dead?
Or am I alive?
Does anyone hear me cry?
I just want to be free.
Can anyone see these scarred wrists?
Can anyone see this bleeding soul?
Does it make sense to cry?
Will I ever be whole?
So many questions,
Yet not a solitary answer.
This perpetual pain is killing me,
But is that really so bad?
Why are you always so happy
When all I can be is sad?
I hide behind this mask
Of the happy girl I portray.
This girl no one knows
Whose heart is prone to stray.
I just want to be happy,
Is that so much to ask?
It�s a hopeless dream,
I know,
An impossible task.
If only they knew
What I do when I�m alone.
If they only knew
To bleed I'm prone.
