i can't focus
the room is swaying
and my head is aching
the thoughts in my mind are rolling off of my tounge like honey
the words lack sweetness though
and are quite bitter to the ear
and i fear that i can't even handle my own thoughts
and ponderings
because they disturb me so
the room continues to spin
and i'm losing all control
there is nothing to stable me
nothing and no one
because i'm all alone in this tiny, tossing room
the pain has spread throughout my whole enitre body
so that i can feel it in my fingertips
the only thing i can focus on now is the unbearable hurt
that has centered itself around my fragile heart
is it because i'm overreacting
or are people really as immature as i perceive them to be
could i possibly be the sane one in this situation
the room is sweltering hot now
and i've lost all sense of perception
and i'm lying there missing life
missing happiness, joy, excitement and love
i've missed it all because i've chosen to stay here
lost in a pool of disgusting thoughts
its my choice though
to be the way i am
so i'll continue to sit there until the room stops to sway