3 days to go, holy shit.

visa's here, all my shit is together, im almost on my way, but no matter how much i think about it i cant seem to get excited. not that im not excited...persay, but i just feel sort of indifferent...its only three and a half months after all, nothing life changing right...?

i hope not really. i want it to be life changing, need it to be even, but i just feel so lazy to go right now. so lazy to do anything. stay, go, study...it all just sounds like so much work.

actually, now that im thinking about it my horoscope predicted just that. that i would have this amazing chance to learn new things, that opportunities would be all around me, but that i would feel lazy to take advatage of them, so i should really make an effort to get off my ass and do things.



must make a note to keep that in mind.



i just read this book called "the celestine prohecy" it was reccomended to me by two seperate friends, one of whom, oddly enough hadnt even read it, but who mentioned how a friend of hers had in passing, and for whatever reason it stuck with me.

its fictional; about this manuscript some archeaologists had found in peru. the second half of the bible...or something along those lines. it talked about the little coincidences in our lives, that are so coincidental sometimes that its almost hard to beleive thats all they are. about how people interact, about how to get the most out of those interactions, about how everyone and everything you encounter is there to lead you to your end, the one meant for you, if you choose to take full advantage.

this was a nice time to have read it i think. i need to be thinking about how all these things are meaningfull in this time of laziness. to be reminded that it is worth my trouble to go talk to that person who sparks my interest for one reason or another, to go out of my way to make sure i make the best of my opportunities.

i really hope this trip can bring me out of the funk im in. i want to be excited about things again.