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*I Really Shouldn't*

I shouldn't look at you,
but I can stare at you for hours.
I shouldn't hear your voice,
but still I listen adoringly.
I shouldn't think about you,
but you invade my dreams.
I shouldn't pay attention to you,
but you're the main attraction in my mind.
I shouldn't think it's possible for you to love me,
because that's wishing for the impossible.
I shouldn't tell anyone about you,
because my feelings aren't acceptable.
I shouldn't speak to you,
but I can't control my words.
I shouldn't do you any favors,
because it gives me empty satisfactions.
I shouldn't visualize,
because it just werars me down.
I should hate you,
but i do not.
I should despise your qualities,
but I love them.
I should block you out completely,
but I can't.
I should dream of the possible,
but my mind refuses.
I should be reasonable,
but my mind is far from rational.
I shouldn't like you,
but I love you.

~Laura Schiavo