| I stared down at my keyboard, looking at the letters as they stared back at me. I sighed, a sigh of defeat. Welcome to my never ending nightmare! I shook my head and glanced around my office. Pictures were up, pictures of our wedding, of our kids. Maybe it was just time to take them down. It had been six months since he said he didn�t want to be married anymore. No, he hadn�t filled divorce, as of yet anyway. I shook my head again and just about jumped out of my chair as I heard my phone ringing. �Hello?� I asked, laying my head down on my desk. �Theresa?� �Pollyanna?� �Don�t be shocked to hear me.� �Well, no, I�m not, it�s just that, well, you know since�� �Listen, just because he wanted the split doesn�t mean the family did. We all thought you two were perfect and that new girlfriend, Lee, is not the same. We all love you and daddy loves you.� �The way you said that sounds like something is up.� �It is. Dad�s had a heart attack and is in the hospital. And to us, you�re still part of the family. Please come see him. In fact, you�re the one he�s asking for.� I sighed, knowing seeing this part of my family would be hard. They were his family, not mine. What right did I have? �Don�t think that way Resa. You will always be part of this family and you damn well know that.� �I�ll be there as soon as I can Pollyanna.� �Theresa!� �Okay, okay, I�ll let my secretary know I�m leaving, better?� �I�ll see you shortly.� I hung up my phone and let my head rest on the cold surface. God, why did D have to be a jerk sometimes? I could have sworn we were happily married, but no, not to him anyways. His birthday party and he thought I would be out of town and I was, but I had made arrangements so I could be there and what did I found out? He had a girlfriend! And that leads us to here. I tried talking to him, figure out where we went wrong, but he wouldn�t talk to me. So, I just gave up. Let him have his life. I had my kids who meant the world to me and that�s all that mattered now. I picked up my phone and buzzed Cory, my secretary, telling her I was leaving for the afternoon. I looked around the room and saw her staring out the window. I walked over and stood behind her. �Theresa?� She turned around and so did I, coming face to face with my mother-in-law. �Paula, como estas?� �Muy bien mija. Why Paula, thought it was mama?� I smiled and gave her a hug. �Thought I didn�t have the right seeing how him and I�� I trailed off as she shook her head. She grabbed my hand and lead me to the seat she had just vacated. �No, you will always have that right mija. You are my daughter, regardless of what he says. Sides, you have my grandchildren.� I laughed at that and she smiled. �I love that smile of yours mija. Such a shame he did this. Pues, his loss.� �How is he mom?� �He wants to see you mija. You know he loves you like his mija and we all know you look upon him as the papa you never had.� �Is he awake?� �No, the doctor said you can see him shortly though.� I stood up and let John wrap me in his embrace. �It�s good to see you.� �You too John.� �Why did you keep your space?� �Because I didn�t feel right.� �Shh, it is right, it will always be right.� I smiled and he sat down next to me. �How�s the little ones?� I glanced up at Pollyanna as she took the seat across from me. �They�re both with my mom. I told her what was going on and she didn�t mind watching them for me.� �That�s good.� I smiled as Pollyanna and Paula got wrapped up in their conversation. �John, how is dad?� My head snapped up as John stood up, blocking Howie�s current view from me. �He�s okay. Asleep now though.� �Good, I was so worried.� He side stepped John and went to hug his mom but stopped. �What are you doing here?� �She has a right to be here Howard. She is part of this family.� �No, she�s not, not anymore.� I bite my lip, glancing from him to John. �Howard, grow up man. She loves dad, just like we do.� Howie just rolled his eyes, hugged his mom and Pollyanna and sat next to her, pulling Lee down beside him. Of course, that would be what he would do. Bring the current girlfriend. I sighed and smiled as Pollyanna offered to go get coffee for everyone. �Look, I know this won�t be easy for you Resa, but D does not love her. I�m not sure what�s going on in his mind, but love is not what he feels.� I looked at Pollyanna and she glanced at me. �What?� �You are so damn certain me and him still belong together huh?� �Of course I do. He wanted a certain type of woman and believe it or not, it was you.� �Except there was always the fact I was never skinny.� �He didn�t care Theresa.� �Yes, he did Pollyanna. I wasn�t skinny when I met him and I truly could not loose the few pounds I put on when I had the kids. He left because somehow or other, I couldn�t please him.� She just glanced at me, quickly paid for the coffees and pulled me aside as we left the cafeteria. �We grew up with him Theresa and even though we were close, understanding him like that was and is, never easy. But we knew who and what he wanted and who he wanted to love. Looks we were not the biggest issue for him. You have to understand that. So, this little fling or whatever he has with Lee is not real and it will not last. Sooner or later it will come to him and he will know what he�s lost. Has he lost it?� I looked at Pollyanna and she smiled. �No, he hasn�t. You still love him?� �I will always love him. He�s what I always wanted and it was a dream come true when we got married. But sometimes dreams always tend to fade away.� �We�ll see.� I just rolled my eyes at her and shook my head. Everyone was so damn certain we would get back together, yet I couldn�t be that certain. Maybe it was because I knew Howie? Maybe because I only wanted him happy and if he was happier with her, than so be it. Or maybe because I was part of the party and knew how much we were both hurting? Whatever the case, I was almost positive there would be no more us. �Aunt Theresa?� I turned away from the window and smiled at Chelesa. �Hey you, how are you?� She gave me a hug and smiled back. �I�m rather good. You look happy.� I rose my eyebrow and she laughed. Funny, she was older than I was but we were close. �Everything okay?� �I suppose. And you, everything going good with Adam?� |
| The Heart Won't Lie By: Resa Dorough (thanks to Terri for the title) |
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