| �We rocked,� Jennifer repeated. We did a group hug and went back to the dressing rooms to change back into our gowns. Once we were done, we went back to the seats, all smiles as we silently got cheered. I watched as Britney Spears and Nelly took the stage to present the new group award. They laughed, cracked jokes and read the nominees. I held my hands together, praying that Trinity would be the one they called. And as if in a daze, we heard the name, but sat there, wide eyed and stuned. I finally stood up as the other girls did and we all hugged and the hugged the guys. We walked up the stairs and went straight for the award. Terri got to speak first, thanking our manager, family, friends and all those we left unnamed. Jennifer, Megan, and Shannon said the same. I walked to the microphone and smiled. �Thank you to the friends and the fans. Wow, you guys, we just started and this is our first award. What an honor. Thanks to my family, I love all of you guys, especially to the one man who I looked up to for a big part of my life. You know this game better than anyone, thanks man.� We walked back off the stage and I felt the eyes upon me. �Who do you know in the music business?� Megan asked me. �I don�t know anyone. I just have an uncle who�s been in and out of it. He�s not a singer though.� �Why didn�t you ever say that?� �Never thought it important,� I said, shrugging. She shook her head and went to the press station. They asked questions and I avoided them all. I just wanted to go back to my seat. And as I did, I saw Howie looking at me. I glanced at him and smiled. I took a deep breath, watching the show and the performers. An hour later, Missy Elliot and Janet Jackson were presenting for the best video. They, like everyone else, were cracking joke about the nominees. We laughed and cheered as the Boys took it. Yeah, sad as we were, we were happy. I rolled my eyes at Jennifer and she laughed. We both felt our video was better, but you know, win some and loose some. Speaking of which, the Boys also took home the best album. Now, that annoyed me. I clapped as I saw Hayden take the stage. He read the screen, announcing the nominees for the best single. �And the winner is�.Trinity with �I Will Survive�.� We jumped up once again and walked up on the stage. This time, I kept my mouth shut. We walked backstage and I excused myself. I walked to the very back, where it was dark and I could think. �You�re fuckin� trying to ruin me, aren�t you?� �I would never do that.� �You all but mentioned my name up there. Why did I tell Meshelle to walk by your house is beyond me.� �Because you knew we had talent.� �Sometimes I wonder. I mean, if you�re supposed to be the brains of the group..� �Fuck you, you know that. Simple mistakes that no one is going to catch up on. If they did, we would have been found out by now. God, you know what, screw you. Sometimes I wonder if you�re all that fuckin� smart. I mean, you should have said something way back when, that why your job wouldn�t be put on the line as well as mine. Just, fuck, I wish you weren�t my brother.� I closed my eyes and felt a sting across my cheek. �Remember that next time you decided on opening that fuckin� mouth of yours.� I leaned back against the wall, letting the tears fall. I felt myself tremble, and finally heard Terri calling out. I saw her and Shannon and saw Shannon rushing over. �Theresa, you okay?� �Yeah. I just, it�s stupid, I was walking back here, and tripped and I hit my cheek. It really hurts,� I said, laughing a little. �Clumsy girl. Come on, we�ll clean you up.� �Thanks Shannon.� She put her arms around my shoulder and we walked back to see the girls. They finished with the press, just saying to excuse me. �What happened?� Jennifer asked. �I fell, stupid me, huh?� I asked. �I�ll take her to the bathroom,� Jennifer said. She took my arm and we walked back to the bathroom. �Now, no lying to me. Who hit you?� �Hit me?� �Slapped you, better?� �How did you know?� �Cause I got hit a couple times by an ex boyfriend. Is that who hit you, an ex?� �No.� �Than who?� I looked around me and sighed. �I�ve�Jennifer, you have to promise me something.� Her eyes opened wide, but she nodded her head. �Okay, yes, I saw an ex backstage and we had a fight and this happened.� �Stupid, why chicken out at the last minute. Why not tell her that it was your brother that hit you, why is that so hard to say? Simply because they don�t know you have one!� my mind told me. �And you don�t want me to say anything?� �Please don�t Jen.� �I promise, I won�t say anything. If this happens again though, I will.� �It won�t happen again.� She gave me a hug and we walked back to our seats. I sighed, wishing this night was done and over with. �Ready for the after party?� Megan called out. I smiled and walked into the club, P.Diddy�s club. Howie waved to people and talked to them. I stopped at this side, but not even a glance in my direction. I looked around and saw the girls hitting the dance floor. I locked eyes with Terri as she sat at the table, talking to Jennifer about something. �Hey, Jen, you think she�s lying to us?� �About what girl?� �I�m not sure. She�s shifty about something though. I honestly think she�s lyin�. Just have no idea about what.� �I have that feeling. But I trust Resa. I mean, we�ve known her for a while.� �True. Did she mention anything about her family?� �What do you mean?� �I think she has a brother.� �What? Are you crazy Terri?� �No. But we all know she doesn�t have one. I�m just pulling ideas out of my head.� �Terri, if she�s lying, I think we would know. At least all we know that she would tell us something, right?� Terri glanced at Jennifer and smiled. �Yeah, she would. I�m sorry. It�s just rather an uneasy felling.� |
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