| "I didn�t think so. Look, I don�t know what you thought when you saw me, and frankly, I don�t care. I was shocked to see you, but that was all. I no longer have any respect or any love for you. And I don�t want to know you or the man you�ve become. So, please, just walk right out of my life just like you did when I turned 18.� He just simply nodded his head and turned back around. I sighed and went back to work. �Good, one thing out of my life,� I thought to myself. *~* I'll never break your heart/ I'll never make you cry/ I'd rather die than live without you/ I'd give you all of me/ Honey that's no lie *~* I sat down and cleared my head. �What do I write about?� I asked myself. �Do you ever feel alone? Do you ever think you can�t share your feelings. I took a life lesson with me on pride. Yes, the one thing we all carry and I�m starting to learn to hate it. It�s become something bad and I�m kicking my ass now that I know I tried to protect it and only hurt myself for it. I�m sure you�re wondering what happened. Let me explain�- I had finished what I said and saved it. That was my piece and going on my next magazine. I was proud. That damn pride thing. But yet, I still didn�t feel good. Like something wasn�t right. �Raquel?� �Yes?� �Let me ask you something. What does it feel like to totally be in love?� �It�s a wonderful feeling. Oh, Ms. Lambe, are you in love?� �No, not me. I�m just wondering.� She started on the way love was, but I tuned her out. I didn�t really want to know cause I wasn�t in love with anyone. I glanced up and to my surprise saw Kevin standing in the doorway. �Excuse me Raquel. Have a seat Kevin.� �Thank you. Let me get down to business. Why did you lie to us?� I sighed and knew I was in for a long morning. Yet, once I explained everything to him, I just couldn�t stop. Nor could I not cry. *~* I'll never break your heart/ I'll never make you cry/ I'd rather die than live without you/ I'd give you all of me/ Honey that's no lie *~* I sat down in the front row and looked around me. After having a very long conversation with Kevin, I realized I had fallen in love with Howie. I tried to stop it, but there was no use. I kept telling myself that I wouldn�t fall in love, yet my heart did. It seemed to understand things more then I did. I wasn�t able to forgive anybody, but I knew that I was over the past and could get on with my life. But, I knew if Howie couldn�t forgive me, it was going to be a very lonely life cause I would not hurt myself yet again. So, I was here, sitting in the front row of this concert, hoping and praying I would get a chance to talk to him. He saw me when he first walked out and shock was in his eyes. Which, turned to angry and that�s when I started regretting coming here. It was during a talk AJ was giving that some friends pulled me backstage and I saw Howie. I grabbed his arm and turned him around. �I know you�re not happy to see me, and I�m very sorry to come here. I just had to tell you something I thought you needed to know. I thank you for being the man you are, caring, sweet and lovable. Maybe that�s why I fell in love with you. Whatever the reason, I�m in love with you and I will forever be. I hope you had got the chance to read my article cause that explained what happened in my life, and is now buried. I can only hope you give me a second chance.� I stared into his eyes and turned around. I shook my head and ran back to my seat. I couldn�t even look up at him for I was afraid. I was afraid he would hate me. And it wasn�t until a song that I had the guts to look up and stare right at him. �Theresa, would you please come up here, this song is for you.� I opened my eyes and felt some men grab me. I was hauled on stage and stood right in front of Howie. �Thank you. Now listen.� They placed my on a stool and started singing �I�ll Never Break Your Heart.� *~* And I know you're afraid / To let your feelings show/ And I understand/ But girl it's time to let go�I deserve a try honey/ Just once/ Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong/ You walked in, you were so quick to judge/ But honey, he's nothing like me/ Darling why can't you see *~* I was sitting on my couch when Howie walked down the stairs and sat down next to me. I looked up at him and smiled. �Why didn�t you tell me sooner?� �Howie, I didn�t want your pity or anything like that. I had to get on with my life, so I figured I would lie. I hadn�t made plans on running into my old life.� �And that�s why you couldn�t get a relationship?� �It�s not easy when everyone you know has hurt you in a big way. I don�t have many friend cause it�s hard for me to place any trust in them. I had my heart broken three times by three different people. For most, that�s not an easy thing to overcome.� �I do understand. I just wish you had told me. And I promise Theresa, I will love you and only you. You make me so happy and I really couldn�t picture anyone else in my life other then you.� I kissed him and he smiled. �I want you to know I will Never Break You Heart.� song by Backstreet Boys, 'I'll Never Break Your Heart' |
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