| �Qui, qui,� I said, sending us laughing again. I finally stopped when someone knocked on our door. I got up and answered it. �I believe you wanted this,� one of our dancers said. �Thanks for getting it Mandi,� I said, giving her a hug. �No problem. Let�s just hope you�re not,� she said. I closed the door and hid the box behind my back. �Shannon, come on, we need to talk.� She looked up at me when I called her Shannon. She nodded her head and we walked over to her and AJ�s room. �What�s wrong Resa?� I just shook my head and ran to the bathroom. I set the pregnancy kit on the counter and threw up again. �You okay?� she asked, leaning on the door-frame. �Yeah, just morning sickness,� I said, cleaning up my mess. �Resa, you�re not, are you?� �Don�t know. But in 10 minutes I�ll know.� As we were talking, I heard the buzzer go off. I looked at her and she just smiled. I walked to the bathroom and screamed at what I saw. �No way, no fucking way,� I said. She ran to the bathroom and looked at me. �Are you sure?� she asked me. �I�m pretty sure. At least this says I am.� I looked down and saw the pink line. I crumbled to the floor. �How could I have been so stupid?� I asked. �Look, girl, we all make mistakes.� �Well, this is one big fucking mistake. I can�t go on the rest of the tour. Once we go back to the U.S., I�ll be too fuckin� big�� �Just calm down, okay?� I just looked at her and cried. She knelt down beside me and gave me a hug. I looked up as I saw a shadow fall into the room. �Brian, it�s not�� Shannon started. �Are you?� he asked, stepping into the room, ignoring Shannon. I just looked at him and broke down in tears again. He looked at Shannon and she just nodded her head. 15 minutes later, I was back in my hotel room, laying down before I had to go on stage. I heard a knock on the door and I mumbled �come in�. Shannon walked in and sat on the bed. �Do you want me to fill in for you?� �Yeah. I�ll watch the concert from the back.� �Okay. Then I�ll see ya when I�m done.� She bent down and gave me a hug. �Good luck girl. Remember, just keep the flow,� I said as she walked out the door. She nodded her head and walked out of the room. �No matter what happens, just keep the flow,� I thought. At 6:45, everyone was backstage getting ready to go onstage. They said their usual prayer and I saw the guys and Squeaky walk off to another room. �What�s wrong with Esa?� AJ asked, wrapping his arms around Shannon�s waist. �She wasn�t feeling good, so she asked me to feel for her. Hope you guys don�t mind?� she said, leaning against AJ�s chest. �I know that�s not it. Please, is there something more?� Howie asked. She glanced at Brian, seeing if he would suggest anything. He just raised his hand up and shook his head. �Well, you se�okay, to be honest�� �Just say it Squeaky,� he said. �Fine. She�s having your baby, happy?� Howie looked at her, stunned. �I should have known,� he said, holding his head in his hands. �Oh well, we all make mistakes,� I said, stepping into the room. �They want you to get in your spots.� They nodded their heads and left the room. I looked over at Howie and sat down on his lap. �D?� �Yeah?� He looked at me and wrapped his arms around me. �Yes, I�m having a kid, but this will not stop you from doing your job. You don�t have to support it.� �You know I will.� I just nodded my head and gave him a real quick kiss. �You need to go,� I said, getting off of his lap. He got up, and walked out the door, giving me a blow kiss. I watched the beginning of the show and fell asleep on the couch. When I woke up, I glanced around the room, I noticed Fatima looking at me. �Are you okay?� she asked me. I just nodded my head and sat up. �Shannon really learned the dance steps well. By the looks of it, she could be better than you.� I quickly glanced at her. �What the fuck does that mean?� �Let�s see. She looks natural when dancing with AJ. She�s not a bitch, unlike you�� �Hold up. I just offer my suggestions, and that makes me a bitch?� �Yeah. You need to learn to keep your mouth shut,� she yelled. �Get out, you�re no longer welcome here.� I walked towards the bathroom and heard her walk out the room. I went back to the room and sat down on the couch. �Oh God, how I so want to kill her,� I thought, finally sitting down and watching the concert. I watched Shannon and Fatima was right, Shannon was a natural. �Well, there�s my replacement,� I thought. �I could get used to this,� Shannon thought. She smiled at AJ and he smiled back. As the concert came to an end, she knew that she would have to do this again. They dancers all got together as the Boys started introducing their dancers. AJ was the last one and smiled into the crowd. �What�s up? My good friend, Theresa, is currently under the weather. So we had her best friend, the woman of my eye, Ms. Shannon,� he said. She smiled at the crowd and did the dance that AJ and I did. They did their finally bows and walked back to the dressing rooms. I sighed as they walked in the door. �Good show you guys,� I said, giving both Shannon and AJ a hug. �Thanks. Hey, do you mind if I go take quick shower?� �Actually, we should just head back to the hotel,� Nick told Shannon. They agreed and we quickly left the dressing room. �You okay Resa?� Nick asked me. �Yeah. I�m just thinking back to what Fatima told me. She doesn�t like me very much and I think she wants to get rid of me. She said that Shannon was a way better dancer and she flowed with AJ more than I did. So, she figured they would do better than me and him.� �She can�t do that. She�s just pissed off that you�re doing better than she is when it comes to dancers,� Kevin said. |
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