| �Would she do that? Can she do the things to you I can? Make you feel the things I can?� �What are you saying? Can she turn me on, yes, she can? Can she make wild crazy love? Yes she can.� She shook her head, a smile tugging on her lips. My eyes narrowed there, knowing something bad was about to happen. �No, sex is not what I�m talking about. Fuck, any woman can do that D. I�m talking about can she make you feel proud when you held your first child in your arms? Can she make you feel grateful when the second came? Can she scare the shit out of you when the doctors told her there was something wrong with her? Those are different feelings Howard, those are feelings born of love. I did those for you. Is Jennifer even willing to have kids?� �I have kids, with you.� �Not when I leave you. You think I�m gonna allow my kids around her?� �They�re mine.� �And you can see them when she�s not around.� �What the fuck, you truly are leaving me?� �I told you the other night, I�m not gonna share. I told you to pick, you can not have two woman. And you can NOT be madly in love with two woman.� �I just told you�� �I said madly in love D. Which is how you claim to love me and her. I�ll give you the fact you can still love her, that�s fine. But that intense love? That love where you don�t even have to touch her and she can drive you wild? Where you can talk and talk for hours and find that to be amongst the most romantic, erotic times in your life? When you can answer that, give me a call. I�ll either come back or write up the papers.� I let her pack, knowing there was no way I was going to convince her to stay. Damn writer�s mind. They knew to fuckin� much. But, God, watching her leave me, hurt. And so, for two weeks, I stayed at home, the guys came and went, all trying to tell me to call her, yet, with her gone, I�m not sure I wanted to go back. Jennifer was currently staying at my house and each one of my friends told me it was the biggest mistake. What if Resa found out? Wasn�t that our house? So, fuck them all, right? �Stop thinking baby, come upstairs, let me show you how right this feels to be with me.� She helped me up and we walked upstairs. It was than I noticed that all pictures of Resa and I were gone. �Thanks Jennifer,� my mind screamed at her. She shoved me in the room and back on the bed. Her body covering mine, she kissed up and down my neck. So, maybe this wasn�t the bad life. �Hello?� I answered the phone. God, two months, two months of living with Jennifer and it was all the same thing. Sex! Now, I�m not complaining, cause damn was it good, but, it can wear someone out. �D, wake your ass up.� �AJ, what�s wrong?� �Resa is on the news.� �And I care because?� �Because after all this shit, she is your wife.� I sighed, flicking on the TV. �What channel?� �11.� I turned it there and watched for a few moments, my mind not comprehending what the hell was going on. �Are you watching?� �She was in an accident?� �Yes.� �And it was a drunk driving accident?� �Fuck D, they�re saying it, aren�t you listening?� �I�m not believing it AJ. I don�t care, she�s the one who left me, remember?� �God man, I do not believe you. How can you honestly do that to her? What is Jennifer, a damn whore man. Hell, you two don�t even go out. You know, I saw Resa the other day, with the kids, who were all missing their father. You haven�t even seen them.� �It�s too soon, it hurts�� �Go to hell Howard. You don�t deserve her. Just, fuck, just go to hell.� I stared at the phone, not believing that AJ told me that. �Baby, who was that?� I glanced at the woman next to me and sighed. �Just AJ.� I turned my attention back to the TV, noticing the pictures of the accident and the car that hit her. My eye opened wide, knowing that car. �When were you in an accident.� �The other day. Cops told me to go, everyone was fine.� �That was Resa.� Jennifer just shrugged, not caring. �Jennifer, that was my wife.� �You two are over and it�s about fuckin� time. God, get over her. She was nothing anyways. You got someone good by your side.� �The guys are having a party in a few days, I told them we�re going.� �You can, I�m not. Remember, I can�t stand any of them.� �Why did you come back to my life?� She sighed and sat up in bed. �Because I wanted you.� �But you want nothing else?� �No. Just you.� I took her left hand, rubbing her ring finger. �Would you want kids?� �Oh, no way. And ruin my figure, are you kidding D? Come on, let�s just go back to bed.� Her arms wrapped around my neck and I pulled away, climbing off the bed. �Get dressed and get the fuck out of my house.� �Why?� �Because AJ was right. You�re just a whore. Resa loved me for me. You love me because of the name. God, now I remember why we did break up. You wanted me to spend all my money on you, not wanting me to help my parents. That�s all it ever was, right?� �Maybe.� �There is no maybe. I�m not gonna be blind anymore.� I ran my hands through my hair. �Fuck, do you realize that, thanks to you, I ruined a perfectly good marriage?� �That was the whole point. You wanted me Howie, otherwise you wouldn�t have come back.� �No, I thought you loved me. Big difference, now I know you can�t love two people. Get the fuck out of my house, now!� �But D�� �NOW you damn bitch.� I turned around, heading to the shower, hearing her sigh and than the door closing. I leaned against the wall, praying that Resa was okay, that I could still reach her. �Look, he is alive.� My head snapped toward Brian and I sighed. �I�m sorry you guys.� |
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