| A month later and that promise I told Howie was thrown out the window. I sat at my desk, staring at a picture of Julie and Howie on the dance floor. They were dancing as if they were a couple, a very close couple. The pictures were provided by Nick. I sighed and put them away. I trusted him. I took a deep breath and glanced at my Editor. �You want to go?� �More than anything.� �I�m being nice. Have fun.� �Thank you!� I stood there, watching her sing. She had a wonderful voice. And she used it very well but that made me feel worse. �I take it you got the pictures?� �Of course Nick. Please tell me that�s all that�s going on?� �I�m not sure. They�re close, but no one knows how close.� �I see.� Julie finished singing and came back stage. She walked over to Howie and gave him a hug. She pulled back enough to plant a kiss on him. �Oh, not good,� AJ said, walking up behind me. �I suppose.� I sighed and leaned against the wall. �Have fun guys.� I watched as they walked onstage. Howie still had no idea I was here. Keeping a distance, I followed the guys to the club. They sat down and I took a seat at the bar. Watching him and Julie, I got depressed. It finally hit me that I couldn�t compete with her. She was prefect in every aspect. I knew I wasn�t. �You okay?� AJ asked me. �I can�t compete with her AJ. Yeah, I love him, but she�s her. Beautiful, talented, smart, funny�� �Fake. Don�t do this to yourself Theresa. You and him are perfect for each other. You�I don�t understand where this is coming from?� �Just look at them AJ.� AJ glanced in their direction. �I�ll be right back.� He went over to the table and grabbed Nick�s camera. He took a couple pictures of Howie and Julie. He walked back over to me, grabbed my hand and walked over to Howie. �Surprise man.� Howie looked at me, shock in his eyes. AJ shoved Julie away and Howie walked over to me. His arms encircled my waist and drew my body up against his. �I�m glad to see you baby.� �I think that�s Julie, not me,� I said, rubbing my thigh against him. �Funny. You okay?� �Just thinking.� �Again?� I looked at Howie. His eyes loved only me. �You don�t want Julie?� �How so?� �Your girlfriend.� �No. She�s to fake. Sides, I have the perfect girlfriend.� I felt a tear fall and Howie wiped it away. �Babygirl, you okay?� �I just thought�oh, this is why I refuse to be jealous.� �I don�t understand.� �Oh Howie, I�m sacred you wanted Julie. Still want Julie. I don�t know! I mean, she has this power. And though you can sleep with someone and I wouldn�t mind, but, with her, it�s different. It seems like whenever she�s around, we�re, me and her, are fighting for your attention.� �I�m sorry baby. I never meant for that to happen.� �I know and I� I don�t know Howie. I see you with her and she�s�� �She�s what?� �Everything I�m not. I see the way you look at her.� �And how is that?� �Like you wish I was like her. Or like you wished you had her.� �I do not.� �Yes you do.� I sighed and just glanced down. This wasn�t turning into a fun evening and every minute I was with D, I was just getting more scared. �Howie, can you come here please?� Julie asked. �Of course.� Without a word, he let me go and walked over to her. I stood in the middle of the dance floor and watched him walk away. �What was that all about?� �I tired explaining to him how I felt AJ.� �I see.� Howie encircled his arm around her waist and leaned close to her. They were talking about something. I felt my blood rise and I knew I was pissed off. I wasn�t scared anymore, just really, really upset. �Theresa?� �Leave me the fuck alone,� I hissed out. I took a deep breath and glanced at AJ. �I want nothing to do with him. I was right, I can�t compete with her. I�m not going to try.� I turned on my heel and walked out of the club, not once glancing back. �Where�s Theresa?� Howie asked, 2 hours later. �You�re so stupid man,� Nick said. �Why?� �Theresa is the best girlfriend. Understanding, caring and you�re trading that in for HER,� Nick said, glancing at Julie. �What?� �You left her standing in the middle of the dance floor 2 hours ago. She walked out, saying she want�s nothing to do with you anymore Howie. You threw her away. She was explaining to you how insecure she felt. Hell, do even pay her compliments anymore?� �Well, yeah.� �Don�t lie Howie, you�re not good,� AJ said. �I thought I did.� �Since Julie has come into play, you�ve changed. Theresa came to us with a song she wrote, and you told her that with help from Julie, it could be better.� �Well, yeah�� �She gave that song to someone and made it a hit.� �She did?� Both Nick and AJ rolled their eyes. �So stupid Howie,� AJ said. |
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