| �How do you tell someone that you love him? Sure, you can come right out and tell him. But, if you don�t have the guts? Or let me add something to that. He�s your best friend. You saw him through anything and everything. You saw him with his first love, you were there with him when his success started. You were there through all his girlfriend�s and his one night stands, and even through his past finance. Not to mention he�s been there for you through some of your hard times. You still have the guts to tell him your in love with him? Didn�t think so. I guess I could write him a letter explaining my feelings, but that doesn�t have enough soul behind it. Maybe a song? If I was any good at writing those, sure. How about a story? A song/story? Yeah!� //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// �How do you tell the girl of your dreams, she�s prefect? God gave her everything. I�m a guy! I should have the guts to openly tell her, I love her. But, see, it�s not that easy. Why, you ask? She�s my best friend. We�ve been through so much together. She�s almost my better half. When your in something like that, it�s almost scary to mention how you feel. So, how can I tell her? I�ll take the chance if she doesn�t feel the same. But, I have to tell her or I won�t be able to live. So, how do I tell her? A note will never work. And there�s like no way I�ll be able to write a story. So, what if I wrote a song about how I lover her? Yeah!� ////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// I sat down at my desk and picked up the pen. For some strange reason, this wasn�t easy. I was telling the man of my dreams I loved him. I did it in all my stories. Why is this harder? I couldn�t even began to understand. �Mama?� I turned around and saw my four year old son walking over to me. I smiled and he smiled back. �Hey baby. What�s wrong?� �I had a bad dream and I want Howie to sing to me.� �Baby, Howie is busy right now.� �Play his single, pulease mommy?� I smiled and pulled him in my arms. I walked back up to his room and pulled out Howie�s single. I popped it in the cd player and let him hear it. Shortly after, he feel asleep. I watched him and finally figured out how I would start my story, so to speak. ////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// I cringed and threw the paper away. Ten sheets and I still couldn�t find the right words. Thousands of times before I told women I loved them. Or maybe I truly didn�t and that�s why those words just slipped off my tongue. This was different. It finally hit me she was everything I ever wanted in a woman. Smart, funny, pretty, and knew what she wanted out of life. Even with her kid, she was about done with college and just about ready to get her second degree. Her magazine was just getting ready to be made. I glanced at the picture of her son, her, and I. We were out at the beach. I traced her face and thought back to when I first feel in love with her. I smiled and keeping the picture with in eyesight, I wrote some words, words that came from my heart and soul. ////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// ~*~ Remember when/ We never needed each other/ The best of friends/ Like sister and brother/ We understood/ We�d never be/ Alone/ Those days are gone/ Now I want you so much/ The night is long/ And I need your touch/ Don�t know what to say/ Never meant to feel this way/Don�t wanna be alone tonight ~*~ I smiled and just about cried. I gave up on the story and figured I would write a song more then anything. For some reason, this had to come from the heart and I knew that since it was my first try, it would be perfect. I stared at the picture of Howie, my son Dwayne, and me. We were outside my house. It was Dwayne�s 4th birthday party and I wanted a picture of them so badly. I let some tears fall and just prayed Howie would love me the same way I loved him. //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// ~*~ What can I do to make you mine/ Falling so hard, so fast this time/ What did I say, what did you do/ How did I fall in love with you I hear your voice/ And I start to tremble/ Brings back the child/ That I resemble/ I cannot pretend/ That we can still be friends/ Don�t wanna be alone tonight ~*~ I stared at the paper, knowing I couldn�t start the song off like that. But I couldn�t find the words to open the song. I stared at the picture someone more, wishing with everything that she would say she loved me in return. I know if she didn�t my whole world would crash down around me. But, it was a chance I was willing to take. I had to take it. I couldn�t live on anymore �what if�s�. Everyone around me said to tell her, so here I was. Yet, I couldn�t find the write words. //////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// I shook my head, trying to finish the song, but I was missing something. What, I�m not all to sure, but something wasn�t there. I glanced at the picture and hear something fall upstairs. I ran upstairs and into Dwayne�s room. I looked at the bed and didn�t see him. �Dwayne?� No answer. I looked around and saw the bathroom light on. I raced in there and saw Dwayne laying on the floor, blood coming from his head. I fell to my knees and cried. I shook my head and ran into my bathroom. I quickly called 911 and told them what I thought happened. I looked around me and saw water on the floor. It had spelt from the bath he had and I forgot to clean it up. I quickly called Howie, needing him right now. After a few rings he picked it up. �Howie?� �Just the person I was thinking about.� �I�m touched. Look, Dwayne slipped and fell and he�s bleeding really bad. I called 911 but I need you to come over.� �No problem Angel.� �Thanks D.� I continued to hold Dwayne, too afraid to let go. After a few minutes, I felt some arms around my shoulders and knew Howie had come. I let him hold me, knowing I could live like this forever. But, the sound of sirens bring me to the known world. I let the EMT�s take Dwayne to the hospital and Howie and I quickly follow. I slipped down in the chair, waiting for the doctors to tell me something. Within 2 hours, one comes out and say�s Dwayne is fine. He just cracked his head a little, but everything else is fine. They want to keep him over night just to make sure. I can only nod my head. They even force me to leave so I can get a good night�s rest. I walked into my house and just flopped down on the couch. I watch Howie. He plop�s down at my desk and stares at the picture. Or, maybe not! The song. He shakes his head and reaches into this pocket. �Oh Lord, I really did it now.� I cringe and already felt the tears falling down. |
| Cuando Me Enomore De Ti By: Resa Dorough |
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