By: Resa Dorough
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He had hurt me bigger than anyone had thought. I laughed, really with no feeling behind it. I thought about the reason why my best friend, AJ, hadn�t invited me to this lovely party. Oh, I knew it was meant to be a guy thing. But, I decided on paying this party a visit. I noticed AJ�s girlfriend was there. I noticed Kevin�s wife was there. Hell, even Brian�s girl was there. I thought it was odd, that me, AJ�s dear friend, wasn�t there. I knocked on door, but I guess no one heard me. I found the key AJ always hid and opened the door. I laughed as I heard the girls and the guys laughing. I walked into the living room, and with every step I took, I wish I hadn�t done that. My heart dropped as I saw my man, with some dumb chick in his lap. �How could he?� I thought. I tried to speak, to scream, to do anything, but I couldn�t. I was to shocked, to stunned. And man, he was having a good time with this hoe on his lap. That�s when it happened. AJ was getting up to get everyone some more beers when AJ saw me. He stopped smiling. His eyes opened wide, with shock just written in them
�Resa?�
�AJ.� I turned around and quickly walked out the door. I ran out to my car, hearing everyone calling my name. I cried, and cried. I knew who that dumb bitch was. I�ve seen her before. She often hung out with AJ, and usually hung all over Howie. I wasn�t the jealous kind. I trusted my lover, my friend, my boyfriend. And that trust was slapped back in my face. I never thought that he would do anything to hurt me. I got in my car and quickly drove off. Wiping the tears off my face as I drove down the highway, on my way to my house. I often stayed at Howie�s, seeing how his was closer to everyone. I was totally over speeding, doing 110 in a place where I was only supposed to do 75. I guess that me getting into an accident never crossed my mind. All I wanted to do was get to my house. I knew I had to get home. I just knew I had to. I didn�t want to see him, or anyone else who called themselves �friends� again. I checked my mirror, noticing a car following close behind me. I quickly speed up again, reaching 130. The car speed up. I quickly looked behind me, noticing the car right off the back. I turned back around, noticing a truck was swerving. I didn�t have time to really slow down, but the car behind me did. I slammed into the truck.
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I turned as my bedroom door opened.
�Hi,� I said. I closed my eyes and wiped the tears away.
�Are you ready to go?�
�Yeah.� I stood up and smoothed my black skirt out. I straightened my shirt out and grabbed the red roses laying on my bed. I picked up the angel and grabbed my purse. I walked downstairs, still in a daze. I got into my car and quickly the driver took off. He stopped at the cemetery and helped me out. He grabbed my hand and lightly kissed it.
�It�s going to be okay,� he said. I gazed into this brown eyes, my heart leaping. It quickly died as I reached the one grave. I kneeled down and read the sweet words that were printed there
ANGEL MARIE DOROUGH
The one unborn who shall be
Living through memories
I cried once again. Howie kneeled beside me and drew me in his arms. I held him and cried.
�I�m so sorry baby,� he said, lightly kissing me. I tried to smile, but I couldn�t. In that faithful night, I had lost my first kid. I knew I was eight months and ready to get that kid out. We already had the name picked out. But, do to something quite stupid, I lost the child, my dear sweet Angel. I placed the roses and the Angel on the grave. The baby inside me kicked again. I rubbed my belly, grateful for another chance. The sun was shining brighter and I glanced up. I closed my eyes and let the rays hit me. I smiled, knowing my child was there. �You okay love?� Howie asked me. I opened my eyes and looked at him.
�Yeah, Angel is watching over us, you know?� He nodded his head and walked back to the car.
