| �Paula, I thought it was mom Resa.� I smiled at her and she sat down with me on the couch. �We missed you, you know that? Pollyanna and I were talking just the other day about you. What�s wrong Theresa? You just don�t come over to Howie�s house.� �Howie, um, can you go�� �Of course hon.� I watched as Howie and my little girl walked out of the room. �Josefina is dying. She has Lupus and the Dr is telling us she has less than a year to live.� Paula held her head in her hands and sobbed. I let my own tears fall some more and we held each other. 10 minutes later, we finally stopped and looked at each other. �Wow, I didn�t know,� Paula said. I shook my head. �No one knew. And if I hadn�t gotten her the physical, no one would have known. That�s just the scary part of it.� I shook my head and leaned back against the couch. �Do you still love Howie?� I opened my eyes and gazed at Paula. �Of course I do. I always will and always have. That�s why I couldn�t get a divorce. He means the world to me and knowing he had the chance to be with other women, well, that just killed me.� �You do know that Howie loves you too right?� �Yes, I do know this.� �Than why split?� I sighed and looked out the window. I stood up and walked over to the fireplace and turned around and looked Paula. �I got tired of it all. The phone calls of fans, pissed. The worrying, no not if he was cheating, I knew he didn�t. But the touring, the plane, you just hear so much and it always worried me. There was days before I got a phone call. The recording. I just got tired of it. So, I figured I should just move out, seeing me and him hardly were together. We couldn�t go out on a simple date, without having the bodyguards. I got tired of it. When we first got married, I handled it. But as the years went on, I just couldn�t handle it. I wasn�t strong enough. I knew it killed Howie as well, so I figured we should just leave, maybe move on, but I knew I could never stop loving him.� �Look, you two have to talk, so why don�t I take Josefina tonight? Do you think she would mind?� �Oh, no, not at all. Have fun.� �Always sweetie.� I waved a few hours later as I saw them drive off. I sighed and walked back into the house and into the kitchen. I opened a cupboard and removed some corn. �What are you doing?� Howie asked me. I turned around and looked at him. �Aren�t you hungry?� �Yeah.� �Well, okay than, I�m making dinner,� I said, smiling. �Oh God, no I�ll make dinner,� he said, stepping into the kitchen and walking up behind me. �No, I can make dinner.� �No, cause we need the house,� he said, as his arms wrapped around my waist. I sighed and leaned back. �God, you don�t know how much I missed you Theresa. You can�t leave me again, no matter what, please don�t leave me.� I let a tear slip down my cheek and I turned around in his arms to look at him. �I don�t want to leave you. Just promise me, that it won�t be the same, please?� �I promise,� he said, right before his lips came down upon mine. I ran a hand through my hair as we sat in church. Howie�s hand was holding mine, and tight. I could hear him sniffling, as well as the other guys. I looked up at the window, and watching the sun shining brightly. I let a tear slip down and knew she was looking down on us. My eyes fell upon the coffin. I was happy that she passed away in her sleep. She knew it was coming, and she was strong about it. She knew God wanted and her time was soon. She said she did what she needed to, and that was to bring me and Howie back together. I cried when she told Howie and I that. I put my head on Howie�s shoulder and his hand came up to caress my cheek. �Just think honey, she�s in a better place,� he whispered. I nodded my head and let the tears fall from my face. I thought back over the last six months and was rewarded with happy thoughts. The time we spent together was just wonderful. We were a happy family once again. �What are you thinking of sweetheart?� he asked me. �Just how happy we were. The family once again. Just how special she was, how time stood still when she was around.� I smiled up at him and he smiled back. Soon, the service was over and we walked out into the bright sun. I smiled up at the sun, bathing in it�s warmth. I felt Howie wrap his arms around my waist. �At least we�re givin� a second chance.� �That�s so right.� I smiled as I rubbed my stomach. I smiled as I thought to myself, �A Second Chance�. |
| A Second Chance By: Resa Dorough |
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