| I sat down to watch him finish the video. He was so smooth, so fluent in his move, and so wonderfully handsome. Eyes that were chocolate brown. A body that had its fair share of art work. I knew so many other girls liked him; I knew he liked other girls. But it was me that got his love, or so he said. Actually, the only person I was concerned about was his dance partner, Jolene. Talk about beautiful. Long, wavy black hair and a pair of violet eyes. Perfect face, perfect teeth, hell, a perfect smile. Not to mention she had curves in al the right parts. When they first told me about the tour, I was happy. That was, until I got told SHE was to be with him. I tried stopping my feelings. I mean, he as with me, right? *~* Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene/ I'm begging of you please don't take my man / Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene / Please don't take him just because you can/ Your beauty is beyond compare/ With flaming locks of auburn hair/ With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green *~* I watched them together and thought they made the cutest couple. They highlighted each other perfectly. She was everything I wasn�t. My hair was straight and long. My eyes were brown. And I just had our baby, so I wasn�t skinny. Why wouldn�t AJ like a girl like that? I sighed and climbed off the chair. I needed to go cry. I walked to the bathroom and let the tears flow. Once I felt I was done, I dried my face. I took a deep breath and opened the door. To my surprise, there was AJ. �Hey baby.� He smiled and gave me a quick peck. �Have you been crying?� �No, I just something in my eye.� �Oh, I wondered why you left so quickly. Baby, have you met Jolene yet? She�s so wonderful. Such a good dancer and she�s so crazy. She was showing me earlier her latest tattoo. It�s really cool. You okay?� I smiled and nodded my head. For some strange reason, my heart felt like it was breaking in two. He grabbed my hand and we walked back over to the studio. He called Jolene over and we met for the first time. I sighed and smiled, already disliking her and the way she was. *~* Your smile is like a breath of spring/ Your voice is soft like summer rain/ And I cannot compete with you, Jolene/ He talks about you in his sleep/ There's nothing I can do to keep/ From crying when he calls your name, Jolene *~* I felt AJ let go of my hand and placed his other hand on her back. I felt my whole shield fall down around me. I looked down and heard the two talking about something. I looked back up and he was paying attention to her, so I just left. Slowly, and quietly, I walked away, praying with each step that AJ would notice I was gone. He could do that so easily before. He would know the instant I moved of left. Lately, even his dreams were centered around Jolene. I know that when you work with someone, you have dreams about them, but this was every night. You can�t dream that much about someone. I shook my head and walked outside, letting the sun beat down on me. I suppose he never noticed I was gone. I shrugged my shoulders and walked over to my car. I quickly unlocked it and felt someone grab the door. I turned around and stared at Kevin. I closed my eyes, and prayed the tears wouldn�t fall. �I didn�t mean to scare you.� �You didn�t. You�re just not who I was hoping for.� �Oh, then I�m sorry. He�s inside talking to Jolene.� �I know, that�s why I�m leaving. I have some things to take care of, so I figured I would leave him to his business.� Kevin just nodded his head but didn�t say anything. �I know you girl. Remember, you can talk to me about anything.� I gave him a quick hug and thanked him. *~* And I can easily understand/ How you could easily take my man/ But you don't know what he means to me, Jolene/ Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene/ I'm begging of you please don't take my man/ Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene/ Please don't take him just because you can *~* I sat the baby down in his chair and feed him. It was already past six and AJ was supposed to be home at five. I wasn�t putting tabs on him, I just needed to feel him. Make sure he loved me still. Was that so wrong to ask? After the little one, Scott James, stopped fussing, I gave him a quick bath and got him ready for bed. I laid him down and sang him to sleep. He smiled at me and just drooled. I laughed and cleaned him up. He put his hands up to me, wanting me to go down to him. I did and he grabbed my hair and laughed. �Well, at least one of my men still love.� He nodded his head as if understanding my pain. I sang to him a little more and watched as he dozed off. I went into my room and changed, getting ready for bed. I went downstairs and put the things away that I was going to make dinner with. It seemed I wasn�t as hungry as I thought. I looked around me and checked the time, 7:30. I sighed and grabbed a blanket and a pillow. I laid them on the couch and was about to go upstairs when AJ came in the house. He smiled and quickly led Jolene in. They were laughing about something and I just glared at AJ. �Alex, do you mind, I just laid Scott down for bed. You know how fussy�� I trailed off as I heard the baby crying. I shook my head and stormed up the stairs, not caring what they thought. *~* You could have your choice of men/ But I could never love again/ He's the only one for me, Jolene/ I had to have this talk with you/ My happiness depends on you/ And whatever you decide to do, Jolene *~* I held him in my arms forever it seemed. So long as I wouldn�t have to go back downstairs. Anything to avoid those two. Of all the things to do. Why couldn�t he see? Did I mean that little to him? I cried, just letting the tears flow. I closed my eyes and got comfty on the seat. Still singing, or trying too, I started dozing off. And it wasn�t until sometime later, that I woke up to the baby being lifted from my arms. I then felt myself being lifted and carried into some room. I was laid down on a bed and felt someone lay down next to me. I felt his arm snake out and wrap itself around my waist. I sighed and tired to move away from him, but he wouldn�t let me. I awoke and just stared at him. I once thought he was my mine but Jolene was proving anyone could catch his fancy. He smiled and moved his lips, as if saying a name. A name was a caress falling off his tongue. I forced his arm off of mine and ran downstairs. I laid down on the couch and got comfty, knowing I had a long night ahead of me. Come morning, I heard AJ in the kitchen, talking to someone. I stretched and walked into the kitchen, hoping to find an old scene, one where he would make me breakfast and be talking to Scott. But, those dreams were dashed. �Good morning, Theresa,� Jolene said, in her sweet voice. �Good morning Jolene.� I smiled and grabbed some orange juice. �Are you hungry Resa?� I looked up at him but shook my head. He never called me Resa. I grabbed some aspirin that I leave in the cupboard and leaned against a wall. �Do you guys have an early start?� �No, we just figured we�d take Scott to the park.� I choked on my juice and stared at him. He just gave me an odd look while Jolene rushed over to me. |
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