| �Theresa..� �Shut up Kevin. You, my best friend�� I shook my head and got in my car. I quickly got back out and stared at them. �Tell Brian, I�ll see him around. I�ll see all of you around. Oh, and D, don�t try talking to mom or anything cause I want nothing to do with you. As of now, you�re no longer my brother.� I quickly got in the car and tore out of the street. I went down the open highway, cruising at a good 110 mph. I slowed down and turned off and onto the beach. I pulled to a stop and walked along the coast, letting the waves crash around me legs. I heard some guys coming up behind me and I heard them talking. I felt them surround me and shove me to the ground. As if in a daze, I let them rape me, never really thinking about and never really caring. I laid there, after they left and cried. Everything in my life was wrong, oh so very wrong. I grabbed what was left of my clothes and walked back to the car. I got in and checked the mirror. I looked like shit, and that was being nice. I shook my head and headed back to my house. I saw Brian�s car and groaned. I put my key in the lock and felt it open. I glanced up and into Brian�s eyes. �What the fuck happened to you?� �Nothing.� �Theresa.� �Don�t start giving a shit about your overbearing wife now, okay?� I walked past him and up the stairs. I got into the bathroom and started running the water. I grabbed a washcloth and started cleaning my face, avoiding all cuts. �What happened?� I glanced over at him and went back to cleaning. �Really, what happened?� I ignored him until I felt him grab my arm. I cringed and screamed out. �Let me go. Don�t you ever touch me again. You no longer have that fuckin� right.� I stared at him and he stared back. I felt the tears falling down and my legs finally gave out. I crumbled to the floor and he followed me. �I was raped Brian. I went walking along the beach and some guys came around me, but I was to numb in my mind to even think about it.� �Oh God Theresa.� �I was going to drive away and I don�t know, drive off the cliff.� �This isn�t a time for jokes.� �I�m not joking. How could you do that Brian? How, every night, cheat on me and then tell me you love me?� �It�s easy.� �Is it?� �Yes.� �Then you never loved me.� �That�s not true.� �Yes it is. I can tell, I wasn�t born yesterday Brian.� �I know. But I do love you.� �No you don�t. Maybe you once did, but not anymore. I�m sorry I drove you to cheating.� I got back up and walked out into the bedroom. I grabbed a suit case and put some clothes in it. �Maybe you don�t love me anymore, but I will forever love you.� I gave him a quick kiss and turned and walked away. I sat down at my mother�s desk and quickly wrote up the note. Dear Guys, By the time you guys get this, I should be gone. I�ll leave it up to you as to what you think happened. Maybe I�m off in another town, starting another life. Or maybe I just killed myself. Who knows? The night I found out about Brian cheating, I was raped. The only one who knew was Brian and that�s cause he was home when I got home. But for Kevin, my best friend, words can never describe the hurt I felt when you didn�t try to stop him. Kev, he�s your cousin, I thought I was your best friend? Maybe I assumed it. I�m not sure. But, no matter what, things happened. Nick, my little brother, I thank you too. You hurt me. I never thought you, of all of them, would do that. Oh well! AJ�what can I say? You saw me through some hard times, I guess to you, this wasn�t that hard, I don�t know. I suppose things change. Howie, you betrayed me in the worse sense. My own brother couldn�t tell me. Don�t say you were trying to protect me, cause you weren�t. You were protecting your boy, and trust me, that�s okay. It�s life, right? Live, learn, fuck it, and die. Brian�there�s not much to say. Look after the kids, that�s all I can ask. So, to all of you, thanks a bunch. You truly know to welcome someone into your group. Love Always, Theresa Dorough I signed the paper and set it there. I grabbed my bags, hugged my mom and got in my car and drove off, never looking back. Five years later, I pulled into the same drive I left and glanced around. I walked into the house and dropped my bags. I walked into the living room and stood there, shocked. My eyes ran over Kevin, Nick, AJ, Howie and Brian. I took a deep breath and sat down. I looked only at my mother. �Theresa, why don�t you show them why you�re wearing a long sleave shirt?� �I don�t want to.� �Theresa.� I took my sweat shirt off and put out my arms. There was cuts and bruises all up and down them. I heard Howie gasp and glanced at him. I saw the tears and he reached out to hug me. I backed away and shook my head. �Things haven�t changed. I still want nothing to do with any of you guys. I don�t know why I was invited here, but I can see now it was a mistake.� I got up and turned to walk away. I felt someone hug me from behind and I cried. �Please let me go Howie.� �Never. Theresa, I�ve missed you. Do you know how badly it kills me inside to see you doing this to yourself? And do you ever eat?� �Want the truth?� �Yes.� �Once every couple of days. I lost a lot of weight.� �Theresa!� �Been in the hospital a lot these last few years.� �Sis..� �Please, don�t start that now.� �At least let us explain?� �Explain what Nick? How he was fuckin� around on me, night after night, and no one had the fuckin� guts to tell me? My so called best friends couldn�t tell me? Why, because you guys had to protect your boy?� �That�s not it.� �Yes it is Kevin. You know, I excepted you or D to come up and tell me something, but you never did. And you left me to find it out on me own!� �Mommy.� I turned around at the sound and saw my youngest daughter, or would be. |
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