| I walked along the beach, holding my hat in my hand and watching the waves come across the shore. It was too long, too lonely down this road I was leading. I just wanted someone special. Someone I could cherish. I sighed as I sat down, thinking about my past. Guy after guy was walking in and out of my life. And they all just proved to be the wrong guy. In fact, I was dating someone now that I knew wasn�t right. But for fear of being alone, I couldn�t leave him. Yet, I knew if I wanted to find that angel of mine, I was going to have to be alone. He couldn�t just plop down in my lap. That would be to simple and my life was far from simple. �And far from everyone else. Girl, snap out of it, will ya?� I looked over at my friend and smiled. �What do you mean, �far from everyone else�?� �Um, the girls and I. Jennifer, you�re off thinking, but thinking about what?� �Do you ever wish you could just be with someone and know you wouldn�t have to hurt them cause you know they�re right for you?� �Jen, what�s going on?� �Theresa, just answer the question, please?� �I think everyone takes that chance when you first began a relationship. The whole dating thing isn�t easy, and many people know that. Yet, it was once said you date someone so you know who you want in life, to be with forever.� �Before that though, you need to figure yourself out, right?� �Right. Do you have yourself figured out yet? Do you know what you want in a man? Let alone, what you want out of life?� �I want to be successful.� �In what?� �In the fashion business.� �To be a fashion designer. If that�s what you want to so badly, what are you doing working for a job that�s going to get you no where in life?� �Theresa! What do you mean?� �Jennifer, I love you working for me and my magazine. It means a lot that you�re supporting me. But I�m sick of watching you throw your dream away. I never asked you to stay on for this long. Girl, have you even looked into going to school to start with you�re dream?� �Well no.� �I�m going to tell you something I always told myself. If you want your dreams bad enough, you�ll work for it. In fact, I worked for you. You have an appointment set up to go to the Paris fashion institute� �You�re insane if you did this?� Theresa just smiled and nodded her head. �Theresa, you�re not kidding?� She just nodded her head. �Oh my God, no way. When did you do that?� �I made a few phone calls. Got some connections.� �Wow. I so owe you.� She just smiled and rolled her eyes. �We�ll talk about that when the time comes up.� I leaned over and gave her a big hug. �You�re such a great friend girl. When do I leave?� �Um, I believe the flight is going out in a few days. The tickets are at your house, in your briefcase, if you ever look in there.� I got up and smiled and quickly ran to my car. I reached my house and quickly pulled in the drive. I shut my engine off and ran into my house. I slowly looked around, making sure no one had broken in and then went over to my counter. There laid my briefcase. I slowly opened and looked inside. I yelled as I pulled the tickets out. �Keith!� I called out. �What?� He came down the stairs and looked over at me. �What�s the big fuss?� �You won�t believe what Theresa did. She called up a school and set up an interview for me. I�m going to Paris in a few days.� I jumped up and down and just held a huge smile on my face. I looked at him and he didn�t look at all happy. �Am I supposed to be happy with that?� �Well, yeah. I mean, this is like my dream coming true.� �We all have dreams and they don�t come true,� he said. �You�re not going to Paris. I�m sorry. That�s just a waste of their time and yours.� �Um, are you telling me I�m not going because you don�t want to me to go. Or are you ordering me?� �I�m ordering. You�re not going. You are foolish if you think you�re dreams are gonna come true at the drop of dime.� I looked at him and he just shrugged his shoulders. �Look at me, I had it all lined up. And where did it get me? At a shit ass job, that�s all.� He shook his head and went back upstairs. I put the tickets back in my briefcase and set it down in my office. I walked over to my drawing board and looked at some of the new outfits I came up with. I sighed and sat down at my desk. I picked up my pencil and started drawing what came to my head. I looked at the clock on the wall and noticed it was going on 9. �Damn, I was working on this for the last 3 hours,� I thought to myself. I rose from the desk and walked into the living room. �Why do you waste you�re time?� Keith asked. �Why are you such a pain in the ass?� Theresa asked, standing in the doorway. �Why are you such a bitch?� �Because it was on my birth certificate. Look, just shut up for once in your no good life, please.� �Oh, screw you Theresa, queen bitch.� �Thank you. Anyways, Jennifer, want to go out with me. I was going to go get a drink and figured you could use one.� �Why do you say that?� �I�ve been paging since you left me.� �Oh.� I smiled and nodded my head. �Yeah, I could use a drink.� �I�m glad.� �Have fun hon,� Keith called out. �Trust me, with what�s going to happen, I�m going to make sure she�ll have fun,� Theresa announced. She looked over at me and smile and I shook my head. �Bye Keith.� He quickly kissed me and out the door I went. �Ugh, how can you date him? He�s so negative and such a pain in the ass.� �Yeah, but we were cool when we started dating.� �I think that�s your problem girl. You just start dating and don�t get to know the guy before hand.� �Meaning?� �I�ve been friends with this guy, whom I�ve started liking, but we�ve been friends with for so long. He�s really someone I know I could stay friends with. Someone I know I could trust, if things ever went further.� �And who is this guy?� �No one. Come on, let�s get that drink.� |
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