11.17.00
i can't think.
at least, i
don't know what to think.
it's amazing
how it takes next to nothing to go from happy, throughtful, calm, to
just wnating to SCEAM and not be able to produce a straight thought
i'm going
upstairs, i will continue this there, i have to get out of here
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you cant
scream in the flag room!!!
AHHHH faggot stupid.
she's freakin
in here now, that's sure not what i was expecting
okay.. i was
going to hullabaloo, she is eating lunch with a guy, i wish i would
just ask her out, but that just threw me for a freakin loop. i just
didn't need to see that
i had all
these wonderful thoughts going through my head, songs, reading
now i can't
even concentrate enough to read, girls suck
that should be
in caps, GIRLS SUCK
okay, the
aggie bonfire memorial stuff is going on, it's quiet, people are
looking at and signing that stuff, but i dont feel like explaining it
i cant see
her, she is behind the flag couch from me, there is a corp guy, can't
see his shoes, but i would guess a senior, on the wall bench, and two
other guys talking on the couch across from me. she is just out of
view. he is a senior, probably band. what in the world do i do? i
cant read, i have no concentration right now, i guess i could talk to
her, but that scares the crap out of me, what do i say "hey, you
go to grace dont you?"
okay, i moved,
dangit she is layind down on her stomach studying, that would just be
awkward to go talk to her. i never really noticed, but she has a nice
body too, besides being freakin cute, and that smile. oh i am
pittiful, i think every guy in here is looking at HER. i dont know
why i cant go talk to her.
people who sit
throught the closing credits of movies ROCK!
hmm, she is
leaving, oh well. she is really cute, i will talk to her some day
i am so
freaking sad
its not that
big a deal