this was a
day's thoughts
novelee you
won't believe what i just saw
the next time
you hear from me
i'll probably be
writing you
lettsrs in freehand
and free verse
and you'll try
to preserve what it meant
but you won't
know what to do with me
and i'll ask
you to trash it, please
i don't want
anyone to know
i dont want to remember
anything i
wrote to you
it wasn't true
and if that
were the truth
wouldn't life
be a lot easier
space your words
to a space unheard
make them take
up every breath you breathe
i'll write it down
without a sound
i know every
thing you're thinking
i'm sure she
never thinks of me
not the way
i'd like to be
i'll never be
who they want
i can't
conform to a mold
that isn't me
i wont deny
because i
can't deny
that i saw you
there and i left
as fast as i could
i didn't want
you to see me
i didn't think
i could handle
nothing good
could come from that
i know you
heard through an old friend
i'm back in town
i let you down
because i
don't want to see you while i'm here
as winter comes
and things get old
i didn't
remember it got this cold here
i have to leave
i'm sorry, for
everything we use to share
i swear
i stare
i can't help
it, but when you walk in a room
everything is changed
i'd like to
try and act my age
and be myself
but i'm scared
that that's
not good enough for you
how would you notice
me, i'm a wallflower
there's no way
you'll ever know i'm here
at least now
it seems
that
everything is going great
i'll just
watch now
i'd rather
know you're having fun
this isn't my
kind of thing
run along and socialize
i have a great
view, of everything
i can see and hear
it's memories
that kill me
every time
it's the same
old story every time
i swear i'm
tired of living this out
i'll sit back
and watch
my love fly
because
nothing good can come of trying
i'd rather
have the hope and dream
than try to
talk and lose everything
in one simple rejection
novelee,
please love me back
i can't stand
to watch it any more
i'm gone
or at least
i'm leaving
i'm thinking
about getting out of here
there's no point
it seems
there's nothing left
to be said
between us
it seems like
i'm ungracious
but i'm not
i'd never take
back the time i gave to you
i love it,
every second of it
believe me, i
wouldn't change a thing