>so am i the one who is wrong, because i'm being >selfish and want his attention on me all the time, >i mean, if you had a group of people they >can't all feel like they were the centre of >attention? maybe i don't have it right. i don't >understand.

i don't want to be part of an entourage. unless i feel like i belong in it, and sometimes i have felt like that. i don't know why you bother with him, i don't think you are being selfish because you don't want to be part of the CROWD. i don't either, and it isn't your fault that he feels safe in a crowd either, when he starts doing his rent-a-crowd, just leave, you don't have to put up with it.

i want everything to B all together in one place like, writing a letter to you, a diary entry and writing my assignment, thats the thing about the electronic wordprocessor with 100% recycled electrons. i've still got paint on my hands from painting 2 days ago, i am really procrastinating this assignment *sigh* am i the only person that believes in turning off mobile phones in liberries? i finally figured out what Gary actually does, he is a web designer

Kerryn wants me to move out, i am going to live in a caravan, by myself, Kerryn and i do not agree on a lot of things, and we can't just agree to disagree, she stares at me and says i just can't understand why you do what you do, as if she doesn't have enough other crap to think about, as if i don't have enough crap to think about, besides where am i going to live.

i think i am nearly at the wrap up my assignment stage, i am sick of doing it, and i am sick of B&W studies for painting, and now, there is no more weekend access to the studio, and i am sick of not having any money