Monday

how much self-referential stuff can we write?

this guy is really bugging the shit out of me, with his stupid movie, of the car racing around the track, and really coming here was a waste of time, with him, it is very hard to concentrate, on the multitasking, i could probably write and write and angry and angry angry, concentrate on writing this, but i have got other things to do, and i wonder how people block things out?

i can block out the passing of time, it is already 4:30 pm, and i got here just after 3pm, and the other day when i was writing out my life history, i blocked out the passing of time, and lost one and a half hours, but there is a certain kind of thinking that we need to do, switching windows? to go from one window to another, requires remembering what was in it, there is always just clicking on it, but then to think of the next step. planning, visualising, looking ahead.

speaking of that, it will be my mum's birthday soon, i am not looking forward to it anymore, i will have to go out to Shailer Park, on the bus, in the dark, on a Saturday, i guess i should go in the light