| I just don't give a Fuck about you! Well, not about most people. |
| As I have stated many a time in the past; I don't believe you make many friends when you live abroad and live amongst foreigners that you know will move away some day. I have stated on this web-site many a time that I only have about 4 real Friends and I still don't believe I have more at the moment. Ever since I moved to another place and got another job I haven't had any contact with most people I worked with and hung out with when I worked for my former employer. The person that came closest to a friend was Tina and I haven't seen her in ages. This is for a very simple reason; I have nothing to say to her. Some people might consider this weird but that's just the way it is. It is amazing how much shit you will put up with when you see someone a lot, once you move away from them all that is over. They start to annoy the living hell out of you and you can't be bothered as a decent conversation is out of the question, and you don't really care about their petty lives. (Hell my own is sad enough) I share my house with two guys and one of them is still befriended with her, kind off. He occasionally tells me about the stunts she has pulled and I find that I honestly don't give a hoot what she has been upto or what troublem she has gotten herself into this time. I have no respect for people that don't respect themselves and it's blatantly obvious Tina doesn't give a damn about herself, so why should I? Would I care if she jumped in front of a car? No..sorry can't be bothered. She is back to the same level where I place most people. The level of utter contempt and disgust. I also wouldn't care if any one of the guys I share my house with would leave, they are cool but I don't consider them friends. We share a house because it is convenient but one of them is starting to annoy me more and more and I couldn't care less about them. I won't even care if a Bomb drops on the place where I used to work and all my ex-employees die a slow and painfull death...I never liked most of them anyways and the rest I don't give a fuck about! They in turn don't give a crap about me, and that's the way it should be! I have made two friends in Scotland though, two people that seem to be on the same twisted wavelenght as I am. Two people that I never expected to actually consider friends....two very, no VERY cool chicks. One of them is an INCREDIBLY bright Italian chick, she is smarter then I am..by a long way, and I haven't found many girls that could even come close to having half a brain let alone find someone that you can really have a very good conversation with without it getting boring. She is very funny and very cool. The other one is French, the "should I or should I not chick".Yes, she moved to another country but her, the Italian chick and myself have kept in touch over the past few months and I am very fond (YUCK!) of both of them. We have even booked a holiday with the three of us, because we all needed one and because it would be very cool to hang out with eachother for a week. So in a few weeks we are of to Italy (not touristy Italy but just a nice quiet place..I hope) and it'll be great fun. Sure the "should I or should I not" chick is there but we are way beyond the point of me being able to hit on her so that ain't ever gonna happen (I won't complain if she hits on me but that's beside the point) We are soo far beyond that point that I almost consider them both to be real Friends...How cool is that?? All in all, the time in Scotland has not been wasted. Sure I met 600 people whom I can't stand, but I have met 2 very cool people..not a bad average considering I probably only like 25 people out of the worldwide population of 6 billion. |
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| 17-05-2002 00:25 GMT |