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Babbles...sometimes they just get out... |
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A question...are we required to dig to give someone a chance to be interesting and if so...for how ling...and if we are..then does this put too many people, too fast..at a point of trying too hard.. to prove themself...those blah blah.. I�ve just been back from ___________(substitute...Thailand..Europe, Central America)..travelling the world types..(it is interesting don�t get me wrong..and if someone asks you..yes..give info..answer sincerely..but be perceptive..to who is looking to listen..I suppose.) Or the I�ve met so and so...(we�ve all been there...Tom Cruise..This band...this artist..), or perhaps I study the dictionary in my spare time...and the goal of the next ten minutes is to prove it to you....greeattt...(kudos certainly not excluded in this case...) but still..sometimes big parts of life seem like a huge catch 22...(Are you embarrassed to think I don�t really know why a catch 22 IS a catch 22) You don� give to charity...you�re a rat... you DO give to charity..you are still a selfish attention grabbing monkey head... you don�t shave your legs...good for you! you�ve escaped the mainstream social flow...good on yah...how radical... you don�t shave your legs...? ewww what� happened to you..why don� you take pride in yourself.. lately... whose faith are we testing...whose opinion and praise do we value... To when and who should be tune in with our heart behind it... What is safe to listen to and are there still places we should hold within and safely guard? |
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People are generally attracted to other ppl� enthusiasm, this along with the praise and confusion are conbtributing to the reason I need to start a small clothing label..first centered on slips, lingerie, as clothering..it�s not new, but hey..not risque, perhaps simply, slighly,surising. Let� call it Bright Slip-Ups. If youve known me in the past year you may nave nocticed maybe my outfits or pajamas when necessary (or unnecessary) :) are chosen from whole slips to half slips, from shiny, lace, black to the rare beige, but you gotta understand my personal absolute faves are the electic red, to the brigth salmon perhaps the softer longer rose with the hot pink on top or maybe under a pencil length pinstrip number for extra elements of surprise...nortmal to a new entertainment of surprise... ppl questioning my purpose down to the round and glamerous black woman in the airport, I love for being brave and assertive enought to ask, "excuse me honey, youre slip is showin...um or is that your style?" I am so happy to laugh without a tinge of embarrassment and say..you got it... You can sleep in em, swim in em and most defnintely put a few on and wear em . sometimes people style confuses me. absolutely. sing praise to that right?I don� want to demand attention but i� sure happy if I give some girl an idea, some woman something to do, or think about, as many woman as I can give the courage to slip-up now and again...I� off to find a new shade, new length, new slip..i� waiting for my next surprise inspiration..blow me away... |
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Remailing among my top social fears is still there...going to that dreaded party...where some down home earthy/too excesso rug paranoid (which even though I understand..right mom) has Yes, declared it that zone...That Zone...a shoes-off house..even as sleek as it isn� to unzip those lovely high, Anna Wintour approved pointed toed, equal or ahead of the rest black (or for funks sake) hot pink boots, to find nice grey calvin klein dress socks..but it is EVER so much more likely for me to have one poofy worn WHITE athletic sock (oh how I despise white socks...) , paired with maybe a puffy red, faded, scratchy ski sock..yup that sounds fairly accurate..BAM..your mood..grace..just killed..maybe there�s even an odor...(never do synthetic cheap shoes again..i�m learning..im the new quality baby)..may as well go to a party with my curls brushed out..go for the full effect...white socks and Triangle-Cloud-Head! damn the hosts that are so okay with the condition of their winter tootsies that they can smugly steal a woman, like my own, self-confidence away...it� true..this may make me sound weak..or shallow mind you...I like bare feet..I�e gone on whole trips with nothing but a 99cent pair of hideous flip flops...but I am not always IN that zone...of comfort and prefer to settle into them on my own terms..hands in the air if you feel me when I sayyyyyyy white socks with a darling pencil skirt can sure kill a mood. ;) |
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Being an American in Europe makes me realize a few things...(a shitload of things..which I�ll now mention a few). It makes me realize what a sucker I�ve been in America...for The Foreigner...submitting to the accented warriors...(IE smart European, Aussie, etc. men..)...mind you being the Foreigner..an American here..is about as useful as a chocolate teapot and gets me as far. It�s not deliscious and it�s not multi-lingual...it�s slightly embarrassing.. Here�s me the sucker..in America, dancing...(an example) groovin at a show with my girls.....wha wha...feel someone behind me..hmm eventually my buzz isn� that strong and I turn around..in fear to face my mystery dance partner..oh lovely..(bleh) a beard...even worse..it�s an attempted beard, short, ie NOT TALL, and even guilty looking, not even the confidence to pull off his smooth maneuver..THEN, you got it, he speaks...what�s that I detect..another question follows..Yes, an accent! (nevermind the dim answer). Turn and continue groovin with my foreigner... We are so easily duped...that is if you�ve got the stereotypical goods...(or one of them) (I should say I am so duped, but that is way more embarrassing to admit...and I don�t get (like getting) embarrassed) Thoughts? |
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