I see the distant lights ahead
Another hour or so, and I'll be back in bed
I guess I really thought
That I was gone for good
But you know I never could
It was such a beautiful night; I thought that there would be absolutely nothing to spoil it. Unfortunately, I was wrong. I was furious. So furious, that I was not thinking clearly. All I knew was that he was with another woman, and their lips were locked. Neither knew I was even there. And then I revealed myself. I was only so furious that I hadn�t noticed that he had been struggling against the other woman the entire time.
He broke free of her when he saw me. He seemed relieved; undeniably so. And yet my anger grew. His attempted deception would not work on me.
�What�s going on?� I demanded.
�Vesta,� he pleaded, �it�s not what you�re think-�
�It�s exactly what you think it is.� The woman said. �He loves me now.�
�NO! Vesta, please believe me!�
I would deal with him later. For now, I dealt with the woman. I attacked her by faking a punch with my left and striking her with my right. She staggered backward, and I struck again by kicking my foot to her chin. She fled, terrified and crying harshly. I then turned to him. He attempted to embrace me, and I shoved him away.
�She was an old flame.� He said. �She was trying to win me over again. You saw me, I tried to stop her!�
�You were actually enjoying it!� I shot at him. �I saw you!�
�Please Vesta, I feel nothing for anymore, not even now! I love you!�
My anger was so great that it had blinded me. Tears began pouring from my eyes.
�Don�t say that, Bumlets. You�re just trying to cover.�
�I am not! I mean it, I love you!�
My fury boiled over. I released my itching hand to slap him across the face. He was thoroughly startled at my actions and held a hand against his face.
�I hate you!�
�Vesta, please-�
Unwilling to listen, I turned around. He kept calling my name and followed. I began to run, and he still pursued. I finally managed to elude him and take a shortcut through an alley. As soon as I was sure I was out of his range, I slumped against a building and began to sob.
I count the headlights passing by
With every one I find
Another reason why
You'll be sound asleep
And I'll look a fool
How could I be so cruel?
When I finally lifted my head, I watched the people walk by. I counted every one of them, and with each face came a reason for me to go back to Bumlets.
You jumped to conclusions too quickly.
You loved him, and he loved you like no other ever could.
You know that he was struggling against that woman. You know she had forced herself upon him.
You know you overreacted. Your impulsiveness has often got the best of you.
More and more reasons swarmed my head and heart. I was realizing that everything they said was true. Oh, my temper had interfered again. It was true, I loved Bumlets. The look in his eyes when he said he loved me�oh God, he meant it! He meant every word!
I sobbed more. How could I have been so cruel to him? He could never love me after this! I had thrown away the only man I would ever love! My heart cried foul names at me. Could I go back and try to apologize?
Only love could make me turn around
And make these tears come tumbling down
Only love
Only love could make you stay with me
I doubt myself but you believe
Only love
His image was branded into my mind. It was the look on his face when he said he loved me. It was me and only me he loved. I wouldn�t let go of that, especially not now. I leapt to my feet and fled to the lodging house.
I arrived, and he was not there. No one had seen him. I lingered in the lobby, awaiting his arrival. He never came. All throughout the night, I stayed there, waiting for him. And he had not come.
Endless tears flowed from my eyes that morning. I had neither slept all night, nor eaten a bite since the fight. My heart was quivering in heartache and anger at myself for having been so impulsive. Would I ever see him again?
I had my answer once I arrived at the yards. There he was, dallying at the gates. He saw me and his face filled with pain. A pain that he would not fight to hold back. I had hurt him, and we both knew. Yet as quickly as he was there, he was gone. He had disappeared.
I wish that I could be that strong
To see me as I am,
And love me right or wrong
I guess I'm still afraid
To only say goodbye
So I keep it all inside
Oh, my love, couldn�t you stay long enough to let me say I�m sorry?
The day was lackluster as it dragged on, hour by hour. It was nighttime once I returned home. Belly aching and heart bleeding, I went to the roof instead of the bunkroom. And once I reached the top, I saw him. My heart pounded as I bounded over to him and threw myself into his arms. My sobs were enough to silence his words of why I was here.
�I�m so sorry.� I said. �I�was just so angry! I knew I loved you and then I saw you with her and�and I just felt like you�d betrayed me ultimately!�
Only love could make me turn around
And make these tears come tumbling down
Only love
Only love could make you stay with me
I doubt myself but you believe
Only love
He still hadn�t embraced me. I clung tighter to him, refusing to let go. Then, when I had nearly lost hope, he began to stroke my hair. I closed my eyes and savored the moment.
�Please, forgive me.� I begged. �I love you.�
�I had no idea you could be so angry.� He said.
So I try to run, but no matter what I do
I know it's true: I can't go on without you
I raised my eyes and gazed deeply into his. �It�s because I had come to tell you that I loved you. And when I saw you with that girl, it turned right around. I could understand if you would never forgive me ever again.�
�Oh, no, no, no.� his fingertips caressed my face. �I could never do that to you.� He tenderly tipped my chin to lift my face to his. �I meant what said last night, and it wasn�t just to keep you with me. I love you.�
�I love you too.�
Only love could make you stay with me
I doubt myself but you believe
Only love
Only love could make me turn around
And make these tears come tumbling down
Only love
Only love could make you stay with me
I doubt myself but you believe
Only love
Only Love, performed by Selena
