I can't believe he's gone. He's been gone for 5 days and he hasn't called me yet. I hate him for it! How could he do this to me?!?!? Agghhh, I so hate him right now. The guys were nice to me, I heard that the doctors were going to put me in counselor but Nick talked them out of it saying that i didn't try to kill myself, I just messed my medicines up. Well, thank you Nick, but you did not have to do that! He probably did it to look cool. Yeah that's it, he saved my life to make dad think that he likes me. What? So now he thinks he can play with my feelings? Well screw him! He's a cold hearted son of a bitch!
I admit, I did cry for what he did but I'm very ashamed. I never cried for a guy before. That is, if you don�t count, cousins, brother, father, grandfathers and uncles. Lately, all I hear is a knock on the door, and �Lalig, are you okay?�. Anyways, I�m gonna have to see Nick in six days, and I don�t know what�ll I do to him. Kick him hard, yell at him or cry more like a baby. I hope it�s not the latter. I don�t want him to see me crying, especially if it�s because of... Damn that door! See? didn�t I tell you all hear is, is a knock? Well there you go!!
�Lalig, I got a good news� Howie said, sounding happy,
�I�m finally going to die?� I mumbled.
�Did you say something?� He asked, thank God he didn�t hear me, then he would�ve thought I was going to kill myself again.
"Umm, no. So what�s the big good news?� I asked, not even caring what it was.
�Well, the doctor told us that if you have a surgery you can see again, but it might take some time.� Ok, did he just say I might have a change to see again? Couldn�t they have told me this a long time ago? Right about now, I don�t care if I don�t see anything at all. I don�t want to have a surgery and then see Nick�s face, it�ll hurt me less if I don�t see him. He continued, �And you�re gonna go have the surgery in about an hour and...�
�I don�t want to have the surgery!�
�What? Lalig, I thought you wanted to see again� Howie said,
�I think I know why she doesn�t want to see again� dad said, �Howie, can I talk to Lalig alone?�
"Yeah, I�ll be outside in the waiting room with the others� He said and left.
After he closed the door, dad sat next to my bed, �Lalig, I know you�re hurt because of Nick and I...�
�Who told you I�m hurt because of Nick? Huh? I don�t care what...�
�Lalig, just listen to me for a minute. I did something I shouldn�t have, well actually, I said something I shouldn�t have. I... I told Ni... This is hard for me to tell you, I know you�re gonna hate me but...� He sounded scared and disappointed. What did he mean by I�m going to hate him? He continued, �I... I told... I called Nick and he told me what he did to you, how he kissed you and then left you and then I yelled at him and told him not to come near you again. So, don�t do this to yourself, don�t be a stubborn and not have the surgery and not see again just because of Nick. Just think about it ok?�
He�s right, why wouldn�t I have the surgery if I have a 100 percent chance that I can see again? Just because of Nick? Screw him, I�ll probably meet some guy who�s my age and nicer than Nick. I can go online and chat with my friends back home. I missed them. I haven�t seen them or talked to them in a long time!!
"Alright, fine, I'll have the stupid operation, but did ya'll even care to ask me about it first?!"
Chapter 10
