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I have been writing poetry most of my life.
Here you will find my journey,
some of it dark,
some to inspire,
some merely to bitch.
The poems 'Trapped' and 'I Will Be Fine' both relate to
Fibromyalgia Syndrome, something I have been dealing
with most of my life.
Most days I get along just fine…but there are days
darker then the average politican’s soul.
These two were written on such days.
So sit back and enjoy the journey…
smoke ‘em if ya got ‘em.
Poets All
Warriors of the Willow Tree
I Watch You
Warrior's Credo
My Wedding Vows
My Gallery
Tread Softly
The Roar of a Jet Engine
I Will Prevail
Ode to the Whining Masses
Worth the Price
Perchance to Dream?
Creature of the Night
To a Friend
I am a Warrior
I Will Be Fine
Trapped
You Choose
Ode to an Ex
Yearnings of Youth
Nemesis
Hero
Sister Moon
Tales to Tell
Poets All
Dawn barely paints the sky
Cats curled still in purring balls of sleep
Cockatoos with heads still tucked
under wings of glowing white
The sun
Our morning wake up call
Has yet to start her day
But I...
I stretch and smile
Cup of coffee in hand
I flip the switch
Press the button
Take a sip
And smile
Faces unseen
True names unknown
But they reach into my heart
They share the passion
The dream
The need
Family of the same soul
Writers
Scribes
Poets all!
Warriors of the Willow Tree
Warriors of the willow tree
Stalking the back garden
Mini panthers on silent feet
Keeping my world safe
The barking beast is kept at bay
As you guard your perimeter
No menacing creature of any ilk
Is safe from your rapier claw
The vicious mouse
The heinous toad
The predatory parakeet
Dare not enter your realm
For if they do
They are captured
Defeated in a timely fashion
And presented proudly to your queen.
It is a great honour
these gifts you bestow on me
I am moved beyond words but...
Must you decapitate them first?
I Watch You
(This next poem was inspired by a painting.
I've no idea of the artist, but click here
to take a peek.)
I watched you
as you crept into our lives
like a thief in the night.
Your flowing mane of ebony.
Your skin the colour of a desert dune.
Your eyes as black as coal
that burned twice as hot.
I watched you
as you spun your web
like the black widow.
Collecting them like trinkets.
Seducing their bodies.
Clouding their minds.
Destroying their souls.
I watched you
as you smiled your heartless smile
like the demon who spawned you.
Dining on their pain.
Drinking in their madness.
Revelling in the chaos
that was your wake.
I watch you now in death
as you turn still and cold.
My dagger, your only companion,
still residing in your breast.
The carpet of furs your shroud.
I send you back from whence you came.
You will take no more trophies here.
Warrior's Credo
I will be
The light that brightens the darkest night
A guide thru uncharted waters
I will stand at your side
And face demons dark
Walk beside you
Into the fiery pits of hell
Let mortal man do his best
To tear you down
Let the gods rage against you
You need never fear them
For I guard your back
When you weary
You may rest in my camp
Warm by my fire
Sleep in peace
For I watch over you
Ever vigilant
Side by side
Back to back
Swords held high
We will face the world
Vanquish it
And call it ours
When battle’s done
I will tend your wounds
Help you heal
Soothe your heart
Ease your soul
We will sheath our swords
And hoist an ale
Revel in our victories
And we will laugh
Sister in arms
This I swear to you
My Wedding Vows
Before I met you I spent a long time searching.
Searching for something missing in my life.
I met a lot of people,
I had a lot of fun
and I learned a lot.
Each had great characteristics of their own,
but something was always missing.
I came to believe that the love I was searching for
was a thing of fiction,
for no one person had the qualities I was looking for…
someone whose actions and thoughts I could respect…
someone intelligent yet fun-loving,
not afraid to be silly…
someone sensitive yet virile,
exciting and sensuous.
Someone who would know me
for who and what I really am
Someone who would love me unconditionally
Someone I could trust.
I came to believe my expectations were too high
and it was something that was not meant to be.
I would never find a person like this.
Then I met you
You made me see that what I had searched for was possible,
that no aim is too high.
I know now that my attitude towards love and life
was merely a cover-up of my dissatisfaction
with the relationships I’d had.
You made me see that unconditional love
is the most important feeling one can have
and I want to thank you for that.
When I wake up each morning and see you next to me,
no matter what happens, I know that my day will be all right.
When evening falls, I’ll look up and there you’ll be.
I’ll take your hand; you’ll take mine and
we’ll turn together to look back
at the road we travelled to reach this moment.
It stretches behind us, even as the future lies ahead.
A long and winding road, whose every turning means discovery.
Old hopes, new laughter, shared fears.
The adventure has just begun.
Peter, I love you
My Gallery
We are ours forever,
Your hand in mine we will
Laugh thru the joy
Love thru the pain
We will go slowly
Savoring the years
With you beside me I need never fear tomorrow
For the fire of our love is an eternal flame
It may at times flicker
But it will never die
I am choking on things I wish to say
No language can do justice
You are an image
And if a picture paints a thousand words
You are my gallery
Tread Softly
I am aware
Watching you
Watching as, like a thief in the night
You try to steal my heart
Tread softly there fair thief
For my heart is a fragile thing
In it there are treasures
Greater than you have ever dreamed
There are depths of love
Deeper than any man has ever desired
Compassion that rivals that of the gods
Passions hotter than the very flames of Hell
Tread softly there fair thief
For my heart is a fragile thing
In it there is pain and sorrow
Such to make the angels weep
Suffering beyond man's comprehension
Suffering at man's hand
Tread softly there fair thief
For my heart is a fragile thing
Choose not to regard it lightly
Something to amuse you then be discarded
For in it there is cold deeper than man has ever known
A calculation, a hardness that can crush your soul
Tread softly there fair thief
The Roar of a Jet Engine
The roar of a jet engine
Winging you back across the sea
Reminding me how great the distance
Leaving me lost, alone, bereft.
But…
A lingering scent on a pillow
A streetcar transfer found in the bottom of a purse.
Racing down Spadina in the rain.
Thunderstorms at 3 A.M.
A raging waterfall.
Rocks dancing across a lake.
Kisses shared in the moonlight.
A pocketful of sweet memories.
You're not so far away at all.
The roar of a jet engine
Winging me across the sea
Reminding me how slight the distance
I was breathless with anticipation
No thoughts for bitchy flight crews
No time for customs officials
Don’t you understand?
My life awaits me through that door!!
One look into your eyes so filled with love
And all is well.
Feeling your warmth again
Tasting your passion
Hearing your caressing words
Sharing the glorious moments
Others call mundane existence
I know I am home.
Sweet sweet Nirvana
I Will Prevail
I am a warrior
My armour is rusted
My lance broken
My shield tarnished and bent
But I will prevail
I will capture the demons
I will contain them deep
Where none shall see
Demons of the soul
The body
They wage against me daily
But they will not win
For I will devour them
Eat them whole
Then smile
Ode to the Whining Masses
How can I go on?
But it's not my fault,
What should I do?
Why is life so unfair?
Will you do something!?!
Good questions all!
The answer is simple,
Just write the note
And JUMP!!!
(If you refuse to take responsibility
for your life...why should I?)
Worth the Price
He sits quiet and serene
He remembers her face
How he took her into his arms
Looked lovingly into her eyes
As he slowly tied the knot
Death reigns
As they flipped the switch
He smiled
Some things are worth the price
(My argument against the death penalty as a deterent.)
Perchance to Dream?
My world is silent
It is the thoughtful time of pre dawn
The body tires and yearns to rest
Yet the mind spins and dances
Tangled web like thoughts course through my brain
Slight images of things past
Things yet to come
Images not unlike a Hawk
Soaring to the great pinnacles of expectations
Diving down to the depths of self revelations
Until finally,
Tiring,
It lays down its quest
Anxious to reach its journeys end
But taking the time to sleep
Perchance to dream?
Creature of the Night
I am a creature of the night
There.... but not really
Seen.... yet unseen
An illusion
Something to be captured and tamed?
I was once a captured thing
Suffered the indignities of another's rule
Atrocities of nature were mine
Terrors of pain
Both body and mind
All those around me desired my soul
To make me less than them
Less than an animal
Cowed at their feet
Until I said, no more
I took back my soul
I hide the wounds deep
But at what cost?
Never to trust
Never to believe...
I have become a creature of the night
Dwelling only in darkness and shadow
To a Friend
The world is dark
Naught but storm and wind
Black clouds boil and grow
Blocking out the sun
We try to remember a time
When they were not there
Hanging over us like the black hand of fate
Clamoring for our souls
They fill our skies
Our lives
Draining us of hope
Destroying our dreams
Our minds drift back to happier times
When the sun shone down upon us
How we basked in it's warmth
It filled our lives
Our hearts
With joy
But the sun is a warrior
No matter how black the sky
No matter how impenetrable the cloud
She will win through
We will once again bask in her benevolence
You are that sun
And you will soon again shine
There will be a brilliance in the skies
And we will all bask in your glow
I am a Warrior
I am a warrior
Warriors never reveal their pain
It strengthens their enemies
They feed off it
Devour it
Devour you
I gather the pain
The horrors that cowered the child
The suffering of body and spirit
that was the young maid's
I gather it
And with it I forge a blade
of pure strength
To wield against my enemies
So to all comers I say
Throw down your gauntlets
Challenge me
If you dare
Do your best to break my spirit
It will strengthen me
I will feed off it
Devour it
Devour you
I Will Be Fine
I will be fine
not worried at all
the pain will lessen
I'll be back on my feet again
just watch me
I will be fine
the demons of my life
don't bother me
mere images of things past
they cannot harm me
I will be fine
nothing can destroy
my dreams for the future
the obstacles in my path
will be easily overcome
I will be fine
As long as I can keep lying to myself
I will be fine
Trapped
I am doomed
trapped inside this traitorous flesh
pain destroying my spirit
is my soul far behind?
alien tentacles squirm beneath the surface
constantly searching
looking for free territories to conquer
tentative probings at first
then a full invasion
attacking with the fires of hell
there is no rhyme no reason
they do it because they can
they love to lie dormant
for days, weeks
I am strong again
my spirit triumphant
they laugh, mocking me
and attack with vengance
robbing me of who I am
who I was
the ability to reason
to think
to live
to be
is all erased
by the white hot fire that is their wake
and I. . .
I am doomed
trapped inside this traitorous flesh
pain destroying my spirit
is my soul far behind?
You Choose
You come into this life alone
You go into the next, the same
All you meet on your journey are touched
By you
You can spend this life alone
Or lonely
You choose
Absorb the wonder and mystery
Wonder and wander thru it
Revel in it's magic
Thrive in it's majesty
Or you can squander it
Wallow in suspicion
Dine with hate
And sleep with envy
Three boon companions, those
You choose
Ode to an Ex
You are gone from me
I shall never see your smiling face
The touch of your gentle hands
The warmth of your embrace
You are gone from me forever
And I am thrilled!
Yearnings of Youth
Yearnings of youth
Demanding answers
To questions not yet formed
Seeking direction
To a future unmapped
Unknowingly still in the valley of life
With the mountains yet to be climbed
On step at a time
One foot after another
Follow that uphill path
Answers will be found
in the nooks and crannies
Epiphanies at sunrise
Self awareness in dark of night
Knowledge in the eyes of a stranger
Heartache at the hands of a lover
Compassion in the arms of a friend
Revel in the muck and mire of life
Laugh at the demons
Get drunk with the gods
Reach out to every soul
And always remember…
It is not the destination that matters
It is how you make the journey
Nemesis
Yet again empty
The well is dry
The 3 am room lit only
By the cold glow of my nemesis
He stares, mocking me
Laughing at my frustration
I’d thrown down the gauntlet
The battle was on
My mind raced with ideas
Fingers furiously pounded keys
Letters danced across the screen
Forming words…
Paragraphs…
Pages
The tentative pause
Reread that last bit
Not good enough
Highlight and delete
Frustration peaking round
the corners of my brain
Where do I go from here?
I hear his nasty snicker
He’s won this battle
But not the war
Hero
Battered and bloody
Sword held high
He stands triumphant
He stood against the tempest’s roar,
stared into the very eyes of hell
faced demons dark.
And was never shaken,
never bowed
He was unyielding
His courage cannot be measured,
for it reaches from the heavens
to the very edge of doom
A gift from the gods
Bestowed on him
It is undying
A warrior on the side of good
He has conquered evil
Saved his land
Freed his queen
She who is the sun that shines
after times of storm
Her voice drifts thru his mind even now…
“Honey, it’s late, turn off the playstation
and come to bed!”
Sister Moon
Sister Moon
filling my night sky
Your brilliance overwhelming
distant suns
They pale to mere pinpricks
a smattering of fairy dust
across the heavens
Your reflection shimmering
across the waters
Ever narrowing
on into infinity
A translucent hypnotic pathway
but to where?
Dare I take that first step?
Where will you lead me?
To a land of fairy dust and unicorns?
Will I join knights bold
against dragons fierce?
Or will I journey through the heavens?
Fight side by side with Orion
against the dreaded Hydra?
Discuss justice with Libra?
Or chase playful Delphinus
across the sky
from the back of mighty Pegasus?
Perhaps I will just stay here on the shore
dreaming of the possibilities
contemplating life and love
Until I am ready
Then I will take my cue from the Phoenix
And rise again from the ashes of life
Tales to Tell
Whisper to me sweet muse
don’t taunt me with hints of what could be
or tease me with glimmers… possiblities
things seen out of the corner of my eye
Send me tales to tell
Share with me your secrets
Introduce me to the people
who stand waiting in the wings
mere shadows of who they could be
Let me flesh them out
give them faces
lives
a past
Let me tell their stories
wizards dark
warriors bold
a broken heart
a mother’s love
Prose or poetry
sonnet or epic
I swear to do it justice
or die in the attempt
©Debra Felmingham 2002
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