November 2002
November 1, 1:11 PM
Ah, to the beginning of another month. I'm skipping story dram because I just feel like it. I was thwarted from skipping wednesday when he canceled class (I didn't even know and I skipped), so I feel like I need to complete the cycle. Justin is doing the same thing, and we're laughing about it over IM.
IT SNOWED!!! Early this morning. It was white and wispy and perfectly romantic. And now it's going to be sofa-king cold for the rest of the semester. Can't say that I didn't ask for it. I hope we get a huge, campus closing snow storm before I leave.
C a Girl
November 2, 2:09 AM
Work was hell. The stinkin' fire alarms went off because of the hazers Ben from Entertainment Unlimited was using for the light effects. Barry sort of blamed me. I got very frustrated. I cut 500 feet of cable, put some pin connecters on and delivered equipment for a DJ. And then I waited around. Then I ran back and forth for the right patch cables for the DJ. And then I hung out at the FORGE (which is basically the dork's convention for anime and gaming and whatnot). And then I felt really bad because I missed the pagans' party. Which I really wanted to go to. But after a few goofy giggles with Murphbomber and some excellent pizza I'm back to normal and not so stressed. Night all,
C a Girl
November 2, 2:18 AM
I forgot, I wanted to add some rather disjointed thoughts. Mostly about love, which I usually only write about when I'm lonely. I think I have all these stupid crushes on guys because 1) I'm too scared to get crushes on girls (they make me nervous) 2) I'm poly-amourous 3) If I like them all then I can't settle on one, chase him, get rejected or lose my oh-so-glamourous single status. But that's not really all of the situation. It feels like in some sense that I could be with all of them. I have things in common with all (well, obviously, but I have a lot of things in common with each one). I have similar philosphical ideas and I dunno, I just click with them. All 80 of them (I'm kidding, I'm not that horny). It's just that sometimes it feels so right with someone but the timing sucks. I know I'm reading into things too deep. Maybe it's that new friend crush thing with some of them, but I don't think so. I think there's a genuine chance at a relationship (just which kind do I want to pursue?). I'm so confused and I think I do this to myself so I do stay single. I like myself better when I'm single; I don't stifle myself at all. But it's stupid because I'm lonely and sad and I'm so afraid that if I don't meet someone before I leave here then I won't ever meet anyone again (and I know that's ridiculous, but it's how I feel). So, having gotten that out of my system I really am going to bed now. I have a long drive to vassar, a night of Rocky Horror and then another long drive home ahead of me.
C a Girl
November 3, 11:02 PM
So. Um. Vassar. Rocky Horror was UNBELIEVABLE. FABULOUS. I saw so much T&A, I hardly knew what to do with myself. From the audience girls in short skirts and mesh tops with no bras to the actual performers in thongs and one dominatrix trixie with little duct tape x's over her nipples, I spent most of the night deciding where to look. Those puritan sensibilities kicked in and I couldn't decide if I wanted to ogle or to be polite and look elsewhere.
It was a very special, very horny trip. On that note, I need to shower and masturbate. Night!
C a Girl
November 5, 1:50 PM
I love soaps. Everyone has amnesia +/or terminal illness +/or an affair with the genetically enhanced twins. And what's the deal with the midgets (I'm sorry, little people) on Passions? I have nothing to do today, and I'm feeling a bit lazy. Shirt's inside out. Pants are the cozy ones that I cut out of overalls and never bothered to finish the top. I didn't really bother to brush my hair. I'm nasty!
C a Girl
November 5, 2:43 PM
I spent most of the last hour trying to figure out what a blog was. Don't ask me, I'm still not sure. It's sort of like what I do here at the diary, except with more links. I dunno. I feel change coming and I think I want the site to reflect that. I added "The Thirteen Tales of Trifling," but since they're not finished it really isn't web enhancing.
My roommate has the best music. I keep stealing it from her computer. My favorite so far is Jamie O'Neil "There is No Arizona." And then of course the mp3's I made from Jim's Cowboy Bebop CD (although they were actually wma's and I don't have the program to convert them to mp3's). I'm so silly. I only delete stuff when I need it. I'm going to try to do something with my day. Maybe knit some more to finish my mom's present for the december 25th holiday. OR maybe read a book. I did sign a petition today. That was pretty cool.
C a Girl
November 5, 4:20 PM
Ok, I'm so bored that I'm watching Pokemon the movie. The sad part, this is the probably the third time I've seen it. I was visiting the old site and found that I could actually update it. It's been about 2 years since I've even touched that site. It was kind of fun wandering around the old memories and whatnot.
C a Girl
November 5, 6:01 PM
I forgot to add. I think I figured out a few things over the Rocky Horror trip. Mostly about the whole "I'm lonely and whining about it" thing. Now if only I could pay my phone bill so that I could call the one I'm thinking about calling. At least I know what I want now. Now if only I can make it happen.
C a Girl
November 7, 5:55 PM
Ever had a wisdom tooth come in at a completely inopportune time? It sucks. Other than that it's f'n cold in the frozen tundra of the north and I'm very much avoiding the outdoors.
C a Girl
November 9, 2:00 AM
For being a big huge lay-about that rarely does anything I feel like I've conquered mountains. Or something like that.
I started work on re-writing my first full length one act that I ever finished. I think it's the only one act I've ever finished. I love this play. It just gives me something every time I read it. Considering I wrote the first twenty pages in the space of one "24 hour all-nighter only stopping for food writing session" (which was more common back in the day, but I'm getting old). It needs work though. It's a bit immature. As John Shout said (and I'm paraphrasing): "you ask your reader to just accept some things. You need to develop it more." I was rather indignant about that response, considering that when Seamus Mills read it he was reduced to tears. But John was right. Upon closer inspection the play had some faults that needed fixing. 4 years, 3 re-writes and much self-improvement later and I think it's so much closer to the work I want it to be. Maybe I'll post it sometime, but I'm not ready just yet. I'm going to give it a few days rest, re-read it and see how the face lift helped. Maybe a few trusted friends will be given a copy for opinion poll purposes. Night and dream of me smiling...
C a Girl
November 11, 1:52 PM
I haven't written in a while and I don't really have time now since I have to go to class. Blah. I dunno. I feel the changes, I notice them happening, but I am completely wordless as to what they are. I'll write more later when I catch my breath.
C a Girl
November 13, 12:42 AM
Ok, so I haven't caught my breath yet. But I have a little time to write. I went to the mall today and spent some quality time with myself. I bought some new pants and another black shirt to add to my growing pile. I saw the movie Jackass (not suprised, highly disgusted, I enjoyed it). Len gave me a discount card for this weekend, so I'm going back to Borders and I'm going to buy myself some graphic novels. Let the dorkification begin. Crimes of the Heart is coming together. It's nice to see it working out like that. And now, I'm tired. I'm still feeling out the changes around me. Oh, and my student ID broke for the fourth time. I wrapped as much tape around it as I thought I could and still get it swiped for meals. It's kind of wonky. K bye,
C a Girl
November 15, 12:05 AM
Happy Harry Potter Day (Take 2). So today was sort of weird. The show went well, people laughed at my props (which I wanted). Work wasn't too bad, mostly just sat at the lightboard and worked on lines for my senior project. It took me about ten minutes to put my pants on today. I'm so fat. Oh well. At least I'm reasonably happy. I called Captain America the other day. I'm still waiting for the response, but that's not out of the ordinary for him to call after a few days. I think I would marry him. Actually, I'm pretty sure I would. Kind of scary when I think about it.
C a Girl
November 15, 5:07 PM
In keeping with tradition, I skipped class today to witness the glory that was Harry Potter 2. Not bad, it's not the book, but I expected that. It was as good as the first movie and the ending was a bit of a tear-jerker, although it was a bit of a let down. I was looking forward to the real ending of the book. Ah well, that's Hollywood. I'm still a little depressed about Richard Harris dying, I wonder what they'll do about Dumbledore. In any case, I'm tided over until Book 5 comes out and as far as movies go, I'm all set until the Two Towers is released. I bought some manga today, 2 Cowboy Bebops and 1 Evangelion. The bebops are actually formatted Japanese style, they read from right to left. I love it. And I payed homage to the geek gods in Electronic Boutique. Which is bad, because now I have to spend my next paycheck in there. Tim and Justin would be proud, I'm becoming their very own little dorkette.
C a Girl
November 19, 6:11 PM
It's sort of weird. Some things I just don't care about when maybe I should and others I care too much about when maybe I shouldn't. And unusually my mind has quieted down completely. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's this time of year, but I can't really do anything but snuggle in my blankets.
C a Girl
November 20, 6:05 PM
So I couldn't sleep last night and instead of laying there and doing nothing I got up and started writing. I've had this idea for awhile, but it really took shape last night. I've been trying to find a way to get into fan-fiction and what better book to couple it with than Harry Potter? The idea is borrowed in bits and pieces from other sources (it's a lot like the movie "Passion of Mind" with Demi Moore) but mostly it's my own drive behind it that makes it unique. Or so I hope. I'm dubbing it "Falling Into Harry Potter" and it follows the story of Gwen LeFey a girl thrust into a dream world beyond her control. I'm going to write it serial style, adding bit by bit in episodes as it comes to me. You can get to it from the main page if you'd like to check it out. As for everything else, well...
C a Girl
November 22, 1:35 AM
I had such a weird day. I watched soaps in the afternoon, rehearsed with Sanjaya for awhile, hung out for Annie's rehearsal, went to the pagan meeting and ended up in the dorky boys suite for the rest of the night. We talked, ate pizza, watched funky videos and funny cartoons and Schulyer played Metroid on the game cube. It was very special, and very fun.
I'm actually going to make a sincere attempt to make it to class tomorrow, so I'm going to bed. Night all.
C a Girl
November 23, 4:38 AM
It's snowing in the north country. I have to work in a few hours. I can't sleep. And there's something wrong with my stomach. I'm over emotional, bloated and too anaemic to get my period. I'm worried about Timmy. Barry was freaking out at work because someone stole the Giltz keys (and although the idea was ingenius I hope the fucking bastards get caught). Dinner sucked, my cream cheese got frozen in my fridge and all I really want to do is ditch work and go to the mall to buy some new manga.
It's not that I had a bad day. It's just that I was thankful for my knitting needles and even more thankful that there was yarn on them. It distracted me to a point and although I might have stabbed someone with them, the urge was reduced because I didn't want to get blood all over the scarf I'm working on (an early x-mas present for myself).
P.S.- I dyed my hair blue. Some like it, some hate it. Very few in-betweens. As for me, at least it's wash out dye and will fade in 7-14 days.
C a Girl
November 25, 1:51 AM
Today was a lazy day for me. And it's sort of a good thing, because I wasn't physically feeling up to any sort of adventures. I did buy the Sim's Livin' Large expansion and I really like it so far, although my game crashes sometimes when I try to make characters. I think it's because of a skin I downloaded (but I can't figure out which one). Ah well.
C a Girl