July 2003
July 2 2003, 5:34 AM
You may ask what I'm doing up so late. The thing is, I never went to bed. Noticed I hadn't written in a few days and I felt the obligation to drop a line. Doing this on Jim's mac is not exactly happy fun time (I hate his keyboard) and having horny cats mewling just outside the door is only the icing on the top of the cupcake.
I did finish reading Harry Potter 5. General consensus is hated it or loved it. Me, I'm in the middle. Need to let the thing mellow then try reading it again to form a stronger opinion. I liked it overall, but it felt rushed and all the kiddles on harrypotter.com are pointing out all the little (or big depending on how you look at them) mistakes. It's kind of funny. My own fanfiction is almost complete and I'm starting to upload it on fanfiction.net. This is kind of tedious, but I really want to spread the story round some and get some feedback. Maybe I have potential as a writer.
Maybe I need to go to bed before my test tomorrow. Sigh. 2 more days and school is done. FOREVER (or until I can find an excuse and enough money to come back).
In the meantime, keep it real homies...
C a Girl
July 3 2003, 3:23 PM
I can feel a migraine coming on, but I am sort of powerless to stop it just now, as I have no access to aspirin and I have class in 20 minutes and no time to ride home and get some. I hope it's not too bad. I hate migraines. I can always tell because I get little visual hallucinations (like blind spots and little light spots that dance around). Urgh.
And all I want to do is finish the summer session in one piece. I'm so close, I can taste it. This is the last class of my college degree. I just want this business done with. All right, I'm going to go do something useful and get my ass graduated.
C a Girl
July 7 2003, 12:19 AM
Just looked up my grades online.
I GOT A's IN BOTH OF MY CLASSES.
That's just another reason to celebrate!
Bring on the cheesecake Lennaire. And I'm eating that cookie dough I bought. I'm eating it raw!
C a Girl
July 7 2003, 2:24 PM
I finished my Harry Potter fanfiction this morning. I'm going to finish posting, collect feedback and then re-write the thing in a couple of months (or at least tinker with what I have). I think it's good, but I could have added so much more than I did and definately rushed the ending because I just wanted to get it done. I was so close to finished, I could see and taste it so I just gobbled the damn thing.
In any case I need to go get lunch before my stomach eats itself.
C a Girl
July 10 2003, 1:44 PM
Missed work this morning. Crap. I didn't think I was supposed to be working. Double crap. Barry's going to chew my ass off. Triple crap in a bucket.
Do I care?
No, I can't. I have that Jason Mraz song stuck in my head "I won't worry my life away." So I'm not going to bother getting my panties all in bunch if B Brown will do that for me.
I finished posting my Harry Potter fanfiction. It's the first story I've finished and felt pretty good about (and gotten pretty good feedback from the few that have read it). Jimmy's working on his fanfic now because I inspired him. Ah muses, you work in strange ways.
I think I'm actually going to try and finish some of my original stuff now and attempt to get published. Why not? Haven't got anything better to do.
Later,
C a Girl
July 17 2003, 11:50 PM
So...
The boss didn't yell at me. He just canned my ass.
I went home and spent the rest of the weekend playing Sims Hot Date with Joey and convincing myself that this is a good thing. And that's when I realize that is really is.
All those options that had been closed off to me before because of this job are now open again and whether or not I decide to take them doesn't really matter, they're there. And who wants to work for a guy who organizes his sock drawer by shape, color and function and then labels the damn thing? Not me, not anymore.
I'm going to go do something useful. Love and hugs,
C a Girl
July 20 2003, 10:24 PM
The muses, oh beautiful muses have been with me.
I've been writing a new story from an old idea I had over winter break and the thing is flowing like butter. I've written 15,000 words already. It's like the muses have said finally, you will write something good and you will finish it this time. You can actually get published, now concentrate on this project and you will be amazed how quickly you can finish it.
I'm just hoping they stay with me for the duration. Knock on wood, kiss a screw, lift your feet over the train tracks, throw salt over your left shoulder, wish me a broken leg (you know, theatre mythology) and let's have a kick ass ride baby!
C a Girl
July 21 2003, 10:28 PM
Still feeling good. Still going strong. Still feeling weird.
I wish every crap situation could feel this good. Yet in my head I am beginning to wonder if maybe someone hasn't been putting drugs in the water.
*smiles, shrugs, grins* I've decided I don't really care.
C a Girl
July 22 2003, 3:15 AM
Not sleeping and that sucks because I have shit to do. Like paying bills that I've been putting off for awhile now because I'm never awake when the bank is open.
The writing is still going well. I've been writing crazy amount of Harry Potter related stuff which is kind of silly, but it's my hobby and it's relaxing. The demon story I'm working on is still flowing and I've posted some of it at fictionpress.com with good reviews. It's under my penname however and I'm not at liberty to give that out just yet.
*Winks* Might as well use this awake time to do something useful and get cracking on my story again. Later,
C a Girl
July 25 2003, 9:13 PM
I had a very strange dream this morning and I woke up not breathing. I could actually feel my lungs seizing up because of the sleep apnea. It was the first time that I had actually felt myself suffocating. I don't know why but the sleeping problems have been twice as bad as usual lately.
The fiction is still going good and if I can finish this one story I think I have a really good chance of getting published. *crosses fingers*
In other news we had a really odd day yesterday so far as the house goes. Our cable and internet pooped out. A black cat snuck into the house through Lennaire's window. The fridge stopped running and just as everything was thawing and we were getting bummed it started running again. And the game Mario Party really hates Lennaire. BIZARRE! Yesterday was the black hole of weirdness day.
C a Girl
July 29 2003, 2:27 AM
I actually got some quality sleep today, but it was during the day so I'm awake now, late at night and that isn't helping me.
Spent an hour and forty minutes talking on the phone with my mom yesterday. It was nice just catching up and chatting about every little thing. We haven't talked like that in a long while. We've been getting along so much better since college (and even a bit before that when I finally figured out that I need to appreciate my crazy mom and all the great things she does for me).
Ah...
Sweet dreams,
C a Girl