Many years I sat here wondering what it would be like to be with someone and then one day I meet this wonderful guy with so much passion, love and lots of understanding. When I look into his eyes I knew that there might just be enough room for me. I long for compassion and warmth, wandered if I could get that from the loving man standing before me. Love was what I craved the most since I don't think that I could ever remember a time when someone really loved me the way I craved or wanted to be craved. Trust would be earned as time passed by us racing until it finally ended with nothing to give anymore.
I craved to have that never-ending or what they so called the fairytale life. I may never have it but I can only wish for one if it never happens. Sometimes I feel that I have a little bit of a fairytale but just not in the way that people think of one. This loving man that I long for stands by my side, does give what I crave. He cherishes me with all his heart and tries to give me so much love. His compassion is so great that he makes me smile every time he walks through the door. His very thoughts are with me every where I go and his touch is always near me.
I thank God for everything that he has ever given me and so much more than I could ever express in mere words. Many times in life, pain is brought to help in lifes little journey. Pain is to help you to understand what is right and wrong for you in your life. Pain sometimes sneaks upon you without you ever knowing that it is just around the corner.
My pain has developed into so much love for this man that stands before me. Sometimes I don't think that he realizes just how much I am grateful to him for loving me. Love surrounds our place and hearts when we are together. When I walk into a room and he is there, I just stand there and think to myself that I am very lucky to have him in my life. No one could ever ask for a better life that what I have now. The hardest part for me is missing him the most when he is gone. Sometimes I feel like I should just cry since he is gone from me for long periods of time. Then I sit down and know that he will always be with me no matter where I am. I love this caring, compassionate man that stands by my side foever as we both shall live on this planet that we call earth.
God allowed us to have choices with love, pain, patience, and much understanding. God could neve have given us such a great gift to live with in life. As time passes by us, love will be endured and compassion will help lead us through lifes little journey in this world.
Dedicated to my Husband Written March 28, 2001 |
