I sit in the window looking out over the plains while looking back in time. I try to think if what all has happened to me in my life and I have to dig deep to find anything. The things that have passed seem tragic and lonely to me. Where does my life seem to think it is going? My thoughts are very unsure of the things to come. I think that sometimes in my life I feel very selfish and hurt by the things of other peopl with their lives. I know that people want to hold onto the past, but sometimes it is wrong and then they need a push to the future to lead their lives.
I have looked back into my life and for the most part of it I have pushed in the back of my mind to be forgotten until something tragic happens to me in my life and then all the memories come back. I try so hard to not feel guilty about certain things but then I stop and remind myself that things are only what you make them. Only you can make them harder on yourself ot make them easy. God has given us a gift and that is free choice with passion and love.
I have learned to take the heartache and push it away cause sometimes.I feel like I get too much. I feel like all I want to do is just cry. Then I take the pain and sing it away. I drift off to think about all the happy times I had with each person with in my life, which brings a smile to my face. happiness is so great in a person's life. I know it is in my life. Make sure you go back and look what you makes you so happy and smile. |
