In my life I have tried to abide by everyone else'sexpectation and not stand up for myself. With this I have been hurt to the point wehre I just cry at night. I can sit and cry for hours from all the pain that has been built up inside. Not only do I cry, but I cry to where I am almost sick. I feel like I am the only one in the world who could even understand. No matter how much I try to tell people how I feel it doesn't seem to matter.
The world seems to be falling apart right in front of my eyes. The world spins uncontrollably without a desire of it ever stopping. I watch the world as it spins by hoping that there is chance that someday that the pain will just fade away. I want the pain to be removed from the body and float right in front of my eyes so that I can see it explode in the air.
There are times right before bed I cry myself to sleep. I try to not let anyone see me for they will only feel sorry for me. Sometimes when I cry. I feel that God is crying with me for the broken heart that I have. The tears that drop are for every heartache that I have. As the tears fall from my face the begins to fall from the sky. The lightning is the heartache and the thunder is the cries that are heard from the skies.
No matter how hard I try to push the pain away, it will always remain. No one will ever know how much my heart breaks. No one will ever stop the tears from falling. And no one will be able to stop the pain from coming once again. |
