| weak pads and old buds 12.03.02 |
| I hate PMS. When I was younger, I didn�t get all moody �the week before.� But now, I do�I am easily irritated and I become critical of people. I am extremely noticeable of it even when it is occurring and it just annoys me that I�m prone to doing this. Then it�s like magic, when the moody period is over, I automatically have more patience with people. Not like I�m super patient to begin with, but at least I am not like snarling at everyone. It is extremely annoying. Extremely. And while I�m ranting�I brought pads over (you know, girls, THOSE kinds of pads) from the States (gotta have my Always) and used them all up last month. Just one more time before leaving, I thought, maybe I could just use leaves and avoid buying more. Just kidding�so I bought some more and figured if I had leftovers, I�d leave them with my roomies. Well let me tell you, these so-called liners don�t work!! The adhesive is so weak and the padding part is so flimsy. I�m just hoping I won�t have any accidents�esp. during capoeira, wearing those white pants. Like Queencie and I used to say, we don�t want to become red belts! Anyway, in exactly two weeks, I�m hopping on that plane and heading back to Cali. Leaving on a jet plane, don�t know when I�ll be back again�I can feel myself getting more and more excited about it. Although there is slight sadness from leaving people (and food) here, California pulls even harder. I can�t wait to see Trish and Dorc and hang out with them. Hopefully we�ll have our little getaway (where to, girls??)�Napa Valley? You guys can wine taste, I�ll drive. ;) Or scheduling the annual lunch hand-out downtown and meeting interesting characters. I wonder if we�ll meet up with Mad Dog again�what else? Seeing the buds from SoCal and the lone Bay Area boy and reminiscing about the good ol� days. Getting together and making our stupid jokes from movies like T2 or Top Secret or joking about ceiling fans. It�s hard to imagine how many dumb inside jokes we have that make absolutely NO sense if anyone else hears them. It�s times like these that I really look forward to�but are too few during the year. Twice, if we�re lucky. But that is what happens as we get older�it�s harder for everyone to meet up again. It would be super fun if I moved to SoCal and got to see them more regularly though. (Dorc, you�re moving too right? ;)) And of course, meeting up with M. It seems like not too long ago when I left him at Guarulhos Intl. Airport and we said that we had 4 � months before we�d see each other again. It sounded so long then, but when we broke it down into weeks, like 17 weeks or something like that, it sounded so much shorter. Now it�s like 3 � weeks or something like that. Time sure flies! Gollee, I think I could do this long distance thing all the time! Yeah right�no way. I�m super excited to see him again�to meet the family and friends�and to go to Disneyland! I�m going to come back dreaming of working there as Mulan again. So this month as I get ready to go home, I'm sure that will be the theme of many of my entries. And then when I land, I probably won't be as consistent about keeping up with this, but we'll see. I might be out partying too much...you know--Sacramento, well, Elk Grove--party central! That 24-hour Wal-Mart and of course, Blue Moon Cafe. Ooh, craziness. Just kidding...party till the cows come home, and well, at the corner of the main street near my house, the cows are almost always there. But admidst the excitement of returning home, I know once I get there, I will really be feeling the lack of many things (people, food, culture) of Brazil. I only pray that I can handle the transition well and just keep an open, prayerful attitude about it all. Anyway, can you tell I�m getting really excited? California, prepare for landing� |
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