(For my "Ri")
Some say that silent night brings with it new found plight.
A lasting dance, an unless flight.
Within my dreams, your love, it blazed
leaving eyes that filled with haze.
You took my dreams and held them dear
and fed to me my deepest fears
You condoned all that I dished
and gave me all that I could wish
I looked to you with hurtfelt eyes
as I realized all your lies.
But then you smiled and turned away
leaving all my dreams this day.
I watch you leave, I watch your pace
trying like hell to leave this place.
This place where you held me near
and whispered that you loved me, dear.
Have you forgotten all I meant
when your passion, now is spent
I never knew just what it means
to feel the death of all my dreams.
She couldnt feel, she couldnt pray
now that he had gone away
Her love for him was always pure
her passions, though, they had no cure
Though her soul now flew on wings
she could not forget the little things
In how he sparked her warm delight
with dancing stars in space flight.
The tender touches of his hands
She was, indeed, his biggest fan
He picked her up and made her safe
no matter where, the time or place
He offered all he was, then more
He fought a deep and silent war
The look in his eyes, reflections of hurt.
he offered his ring, knowing her curse
She warned him, broke down and cried
as she looked deep in his eyes.
"I fear for your heart", a small silent plea.
As she knew in her spirit, it wasnt to be
And now her soul had cried for days
remembering his thoughtful ways
Demons stalk her waking dreams
but still she isnt all she seems.
Lust, betrayal, torment, greed-
none of those are what she needs
A part of her screams out for him
But catches up within the winds
"Let me love! Let me Live!
Her new love has so much to give...
For Daven's truely gone, she knows
a flash of light on shattered souls
And though her soul is now held fast
She often wanders to her past
To see him standing with no fear
using words she longed to hear.
Eldar, Raba, faith and love
she cursed those gods from up above
Pointing out their blantent greed
that they should take all that she needs.
She sighs again, with silent pain
Standing firm, in pouring rain
She made her choice it seemed
but still she held him in her dreams
One pendant held in each hand. She cries.
remembers bluest thoughtfelt eyes
another scar that truely pained
all was ventured, little gained.
She walked inside, her new dwelling
even now, her stomach swelling.
Her new loves wings would hold her fast
But not even he could take her past
Daven's on her mind today
and not about to go away
If only there's been time to say
"My love will never fade away."
For when at last his eyes DID look
she had ALREADY bit the hook
For her it was not his gifted soul
Her love was forged before that toll.
She wished she never looked away
But here her soul would rest this day
These wings were here, and Daven gone
Another verse in Raba's song...
A class of her own, a friend in her head
keeping my thoughts from straying to bed
a right jolly elf with a demon inside
took one look at Phell, and wanted to hide
I'm really loving Faith, you see
I wonder if she'll marry me!
I grin again. I'll ask her friend!
He'll set her straight, and make her bend!
I laugh outloud, I'm really pleased
our characters could truly tease.
Just look at what we did to Set!
We didnt really break him...yet.
Shag shag shag and snog snog snog
my dear, I think you've slipped a cog
as if that wasn't plain to see
you have, indeed, enlightened me
The demons werent the way to go
With Faith I've watched your talent grow
I've never seen you post so great
but, we haven't played too much of late...
and Faith is such the perfect name
I'm glad I get to spread her fame!
Although I'm not quite famous yet
this poem is all you REALLY get.
I had a blast, was what I needed
the humor couldnt be defeated
the laughter till I couldn't breathe
good gods, you bring me to my knees
Faith and Phell are really fun
we'll make Setsuna break and run!
but what would be the fun in that?
We'll make him stay right where he's at!
Girl, you ARE my Faith, restored
with you I never COULD grow bored
you are the best, and I'm so proud
to have you one of my small crowd
Again, you have inspired me
in sparking creativity
so, my hat is off, I bow and say
My friend, you've truly made my day.
Her wings spread in first flight
Sparking her with warm delight
A brief kiss upon her eyes
A willing dream of tempting lies
A dance of souls and love with joy
She fell into his twisted ploy
He answered questions, telling no lies
She shivered with pleasure to look in his eyes
The soul of an angel, freed by her spirit
She knew in her heart she shouldnt go near it
He used his words to play with her heart
somehow she knew, she was falling apart
There were no words that she could speak
her love for him would always peak.
Blending of souls, merging of light
He took her on this awesome flight
She had no wings with which to soar
She borrowed his, and made them pure
Shining in her own bright craze
She sang with him for countless days
And even though her words were true
there wasnt much that she could do
Their feet finally did touch the ground
to leave her stop and look around:
At all the things they'd become. And why?
To see him dancing when she dies.
A silver flame, a kindred spirit
His soul in pain, so she could hear it
All she wanted, all she needs...
slipping, softly to her knees
The kiss of death so near at hand
A simple touch, a wedding band.
The floor, gently rises to meet her pleas
She reaches out to memories.
Within her mind she sees him clearly.
So proud, that she could love him dearly
Her eyes close to her demise
but still she looks into his eyes
within her soul, he cant be taken
even as her frame starts shaking
Her breathing slows, no longer fast
still she lingers in her past
She wished for only one thing in life
Amongst the heartache of her strife:
Let me know love before I die
that I should feel its mortal sigh
that he will love as no one can...
as the ring slips, gently, from her hand
Her breathing must have stopped at last
no longer burdoned with her past
Within her broken, lifeless form
Her love for him would be reborn.
But only if they hurried fast
as such small life could barely last
Soft, silver hair just like her dad
with deep brown eyes that mommy had.
With her first breath, and her first cry
She looked into her Daddy's eyes.
And there...behold, for him to see,
Her loving mother's memories.
"Anowien!", she cries. But he won't come
her eyes flash out, she starts to run
this dream that she has had before
it seems each time, it hurts her more
she wants to wake and find him near
she cries again. He isnt here
she runs from things she cannot see
through starlit forests, endless trees
She's terrified and tries to hide
emotions burning deep inside
a choice to make, one soul to share
she's finding life a bit unfair
she slows at last, and paused for breath
it was likely this could be her death
she didnt care. She didnt run
perhaps this chase was finally done
time to face down what she feared
she held her ground as it appeared
she held her breath and grit her teeth
finally time to face this beast
the gem she wore, glowing green
reflecting things she's never seen
it fills her mind with other ways
to get her through her darkened days
Why be honest? Why be true?
just look at what he does to you
you could lie, it isn't bad
you won't have to BE so sad
Her nature tended to agree with lies
the gem could hide them from her eyes
that needful nature enchanted best
to hell with him and all his tests!
the passive one that lays inside
listened as she thought she'd die
about these things that tore her soul
that left her feeling broke and cold
that gem, it had its subtle ways
of bringing passions out to play
it brought her nature out in force
the gem inspired, from its source
she thought she had it bad before
but then the gem dropped to the floor
she just HAD to place it in her hands
her curiousity made her damned
an outward smile, hidden eyes
no more fear about these lies
that hadn't actually come to play
her passiveness could rest this day
She stretched and drew her favorite sword
the one her family's long adored
her birthright if you must insist
the sword of Ceves, returned to fist
the beast appraoched, she laughed and grinned
it would feel her wrath of sin
the sword swung hard, her aim was true
that beast, it never had a clue
she woke at last, a bit confused
no longer would she play the muse
she'd take all that she could, and more
and still keep all that she adored
a smile as she thought of play
a laugh to start a brand new day
the green light reflected in her eyes
A part of her begins to die.
She swallowed hard, and closed her eyes
she'd been taken in by his disguise
A gentle touch of gifted wings
made her forget the little things.
Her love was strong, right from the start
but this angel tore her heart apart
Fearing he'd leave her, fearing the pain
she thought to set out, trying again
But when she arrived, she couldn't go through
so she sat drinking tea, heartbroke and blue
though many friends she met that night
she knew that none could best his flight
She cried and wept the whole walk back
he wouldnt leave her heart intact
now she would know the truth in pain
like all of those that played her game
The fear of loss crept to her soul
biting in and taking hold.
she found in him a kindred spirit
Horrible, that she should fear it
Too much...too soon...too fast
she knew it wasnt meant to last
there had been others in his life
she knew she'd never be his wife.
Her tears fell down her face once more
shrouding all that he adored
burying this all, deep inside
she found no where left to hide
She cried until her heart was broken
leaving only slivered tokens
It hurt to love, she realized now
she knew he'd leave her, just not how
She felt just like a little girl
swept into his starstruck world
cruel the way the fates would play
with all the things she loved this way.
She truely was confused it seemed
to see the image from her dreams
She had even known his name...
she fought for strength through heartfelt pain
But pain so sweet she rarely knew
it broke her heart straight on through
she wanted love, she wanted him
but knew that she was just a whim
Another on his list of lovers
she would be like all the others
when the flames of passion cooled at last
she would be a chapter of his past.
It hurt her deeply, to feel this way
no longer did she wish to play
this game had become to real
with all the things she had to feel
She kneeled upon the ground this day
and silently began to pray.
"Take this pain from my hands
you have made me love this man."
"Now that you have had your fun
release me know, that I may run.
So it won't shame me when I cry
So I won't have to watch love die."
"But let him know, and let him hear
about all of this that I now fear
If he feels the love he's claiming true
May he now know I love him too."
"If he's mistaken, set me free
that I may end my destiny."
She shivered then, rising slowly
never had she felt so lonely.
In praying this she took the chance
that he would, no longer, make her dance
That she would lose him now, not later-
better than to make him hate her.
A broken heart because she knew
the part of him that wasnt true
She wandered toward his house once more
and found him standing at the door
she knew that he had heard her say
all the things she felt this day
Tears filled her eyes, she couldn't see
afraid to be a memory.