Name: Raba Starbreeze
Age: 97 (appears to be mid 20's)
Appearence: Soft dark hair, worn usually loose to flow about her. Deep brown almond eyes. Slender and graceful. The beauty of her pure elven bloodline radiates through every feature.
Personality: Extremely warm to others, she adores affection and longs for true love, though betrays all that she holds dear, becoming lost in the eyes of those with powerful souls full of the same passions she herself holds dear. Her curiousity is intense, often placing her in situations that are far over her head. She becomes confused easily within the souls of others, becoming enrapt with their passions in life, and entwining them with her own.
Magic: Has a small knowledge in the art of healing, but can call upon her long abandoned deities to take the wounds from another, though it totally disables her with not only their wounds, but the drain of the power around her.
Also she has the born ability to look into the soul of another through their eyes, and this is why she is often enrapt within another.
History: Raba was raised by her grandfather in a busy elven village . The man saw her power to look into the soul of another on the day she was born. Thinking to use it to his own gain, he spoiled her above many others in his home, but never showed her love or affection. At a young age she began her training to be the eyes and eyes for their government, her unique talent, a leverage in getting what her grandfather longed for. Power and social standing within their community. She "overheard" many interesting conversations, and was party to many plots concerning the shifting power within the kingdom. Always her betrayal sealing the deal.
Raba has found that she doesnt care to return to her village, finding the solace of the road, and the lack of what she feels is now her former profession, more satisfying then anything she has done yet in life.
Though many have held her heart over her years she found love in the arms of whom she thought was a soldier of some sort, Daven, finding, later, in the sacrifice of his soul to the demon Kayos, that he was much, much more. Another twist in the fate of the life of this young woman. With his death he swore vengence for her betrayal of his love...though she had tried to warm him of her nature from the beginning. Appearently though he wasnt the only one not to have listened as close as they should have. Nor was he the only one to be suprised as she swore her love to another.
The new silver flame, of course, being called Anowien Skyhavok to some. He burned her with all the flame he tempted her with, leaving her breathless in his wake. Though she knew her love was not meant to last, and that perhaps it would be him that did the betraying this time, seeing all that she was and the things that spiriled so out of control in her wake. Though she DID feel that his love could hold her, provided there was a miracle, as her death was foretold with Kayo's mark and the naming of her as a Seeker of Souls, with the gift of the emerald gem known as Emerala, to those that hold it. Emerala was originally gave as the gift of Wisdom. Raba didn't think she possessed the knowledge to wear it, and she feared the effect on the child in her womb, should she place it around her neck, never to be removed.
Though still our fair maiden has not made a choice about the gem, her love, Anowien, has asked that she marry him, destroying forever the doubt that she had in him, making her faith renewed in the face of the challenges that she still had yet to face.
The choice of the wearing of the emerald seeker gem was taken from her hands when she was attacked by a woman that went by the name of Dream, bringing Raba to near death with the arrows from her lethal poisoned bow. Leaving her for dead, the woman thought nothing of what fates played with her life. Before Raba slipped into the grip of death, she sent out a silent plea for help from her very soul, to any that would hear her call. Without thinking she slipped the gem around her neck, losing conciousness. It seemed that a new Rebel had been forged, as the Demon Exnediash Venex (Ash) came to her aid, having heard her silent plea, arriving before it was too late. What many would not have known was that the only reason she had held so precariously to life, for as long as she did, was because of the gem she detested.
Het heart slowly breaking...In her longing for her missing love, Anowien, fate dealt Raba another twist, making her curiousity and needful nature take the reigns from her hands, once again. And in this state of bliss she was not asked, but taken sweetly to another place where things were made more clear than she had ever seen them. There was another that could hold her heart, and yet her soul was still holding gently to soft wings as her heart slipped sweetly to shadow. Was it so wrong to love? To need to feel? Was it so wrong of her to speak vows from her heart, binding herself to this new reflection of shadows? He gave her no time to run, and he feared not, her betrayal. This new inspiration tempted her with every fantasy she had ever imagined. There was nothing he wouldn't give her. Or so it seemed...
Gone for so long, her new love. Gone for long enough that she fears his return is -also- not forseen within her lifetime. If anything she thought he would have been there for the birth of the twins. Male and female. Though that still did not mean she would not seek refuge in his temple, bringing it light within twin sets of mithril wonder. Safety. For now. Already the Seekers were roaming the lands for her, and she did not, yet, know the reason. Were the gods done with their games with her? Or was there another event, signaled by the birth of the twins....?
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(10-18-05) Another chaper, a new life. A new will. A new day. A chance meeting? Another twist of fate? Only time would tell as events unfold around the elven maiden. Love lost, is love that turns to ash, and blows away in the soft warm breeze of a new love. Oh her heart... Such an easily captured object. But to hold...? Always the question within the spirit of the elven beauty. To love... her sin.
Something is different within this new found spirit though, and she has learned much from her past. It has not all been in vain... has it? A love that began with a blaze of fire that burned the ground around them... Her heart was captured, her love was taken as surely as her body felt his touch.
Tavis of Galvenore, a southern provence nestled to the north east of the great sea. He was the one of which he heart whispered. Within him she saw a future, but so much stands in the balance, for he has a war of his own he must win, and the battle has only just begun...
Some of the most interesting and challenging she collects on her ~Evil Friends List~ sponsered by yahoo. (What? oh...well, yes...I suppose that WOULD be MY list. *clears throat* well...it's much too late for that, now, as I've already typed it!) ANYWAY....(*glares at self sharply*)...if you are here, you must want to know more...enjoy your stay within my legends. You all inspire me in all you do! (And now...if you please..explain the guest book....)
There is a guest book at the bottom of the page...sign it, so that I may know you better.... *smiles warmly, mischief dancing in her eyes*
This page is dedicated to the sadistic tease half my age, but only because he said he would do it for me someday. Take THAT!
Wait...that didnt sound right....
Heh...good. MOOOOO!
Thoughtful words and deep dark eyes
she'll take you in with her disguise
she'll entice until you love her true
she'll give all that she can to you
her eyes dance with her delight
in taking in each brand new site
she'll dance until she's free at last
no longer burdened with her past
her laughter rings the sweetest chimes
so much love for you to find
she needs to feel, she needs to play
she'll need you every single day...
she'll play the muse right to the end
she says she won't, but she pretends
she cant help it. Don't you see?
that TOO is part of destiny
elves enchant, a friend did say
she'll drag you out to make you play
she'll drown your thirst and feed the flames
her elven nature knows no shame
she cries in pain, but also glee
she IS all you hoped she'd be
but underneath and deep inside
is where the darkness tends to hide
the nature that you grew to love
the love that lit the stars above
could all be just a little game
could drive the strongest minds insane
she doesnt try to hurt or lie
that's not part of her disguise
she tells the truth, but most don't hear
she hates the part that you should fear
but hold her fast and hold her true
she'll open up new worlds for you
appease her hunger, build her trust
makes things brand new each time you touch
touch her mind with each new day
just show you care in little ways
though all is fair in love and hate
her passions make distrust abate
Elves Enchant...but is it true?
she'll take all she can get from you
If elves enchant, then can't we see...
the danger she could truly be?
You tell me of your wish for me
that I should love eternally
but don't you know that love can't last
concealed around my shrouded past?
Your eyes see
only that, that you believe
They cannot know where I will lay
on some enchanted judgement day.
Your fire burns me with its flame
a longful, hated, wretched pain
Within your solace, I fly free
without you there, it's only me
Long for fire, long for flame
it's kiss forgotten. Lonly pain.
The torment of my cursed soul
Leaving, my love, a deepened hole.
That I betray all that's right
within this twisted, withered plight
I have never tried to cause you pain
but oftentimes I'm filled with shame.
You pulled me into who you were
A soul in love, a passing blur
Can you not see the nature of me?
That I CREATE this misery.
Always, I warned you, and you reassured
claiming, through love, that all would be cured.
With tears in my eyes, I asked you to see
what lies beneath, inside of me
Love turns to rage in the blink of an eye
Leaving me again, the soft wish to die
Gamble with losing, never to win
Regain my strength and try yet again.
Never ending cycle of vicious greed
that I should, once, find what I need
I KNOW I promised as you cried
that I would be your wedded bride
Your soul spoke of freely given love
You thought I'd fit you like a glove
Always, my love has proven true
When the flames ignite between us two.
Once the smoulder, once its gone
Your still rejoicing in my song
Though MY eyes have turned away
waiting for my judgement day
If you dont kill me, someone will
perhaps with silent, deadly skill
Direct your rage, direct your anger
take from me the souls I slander!
But perhaps, first, a kiss with fate
your eyes are filled with lustfull hate
NOW you see just what I said
and STILL you will not make me dead.
Even as I beg, "You must!"
You capture me with silent lust.
Hurting more than you can hide
You scream and yell "You bitch! You lied!"
I never lied, not once, my dear
but what I've said, you never hear
I beg you, now, please slay me fast
And leave me with a love that lasts.
You tell me of your wish for me....
I see your unspoken words, my friend
when thinking of my bitter end
but who's to say the fates wont play
with all the things YOU wish today?
because my dreams are lost and broken
please don't leave those words unspoken
say those words I long to hear
give up the ghost, take up the fear
the greatest dance, true joy in flight
DON'T give in to all your fright
because chaos in my kingdom reigns
few come through without SOME pain
just turn the pages, my open book
jump inside and take a look
at all the things you thought you'd see
it all turns out...its only me.
truely a demon, destroyer of dreams
nothing at all can be as it seems
you've seen a side thats sweet and nice
surely, NOW i don't entice...
Betrayal is my middle name
you really shouldnt play my game
but keep me close and you may see
the light that shines inside of me
Sparking warmth, and blinding fast
be heedful of my hurtful past
my soft touch that brings you joy
could all be part of greater ploys...
But then again, it could be true
It's on the soul inside of YOU
we both take our little chances
hidden in your subtle glances.
And I cant even ask you please
your wording brings me to my knees
And when your gone, I feel the pain
of thinking I'll be free again.
If this confuses, know this true
Im thinking wicked thoughts of you
Of what I give and what you could take
But I'll only cause your heart to break
If you discover love inside
dont think that you should always hide
take that part and make it real
admit the way I make you feel.
Thanks Travis. -blows a kiss-
(09-11-05)
Beginning with a soft kiss... always
Building and deepening a need
Securing the foundations of bliss
soft sensations sliding over sensitive skin
You hold me in a rapture that even angels envy
Painfully progressing, agonizing patience
Every touch along the soft curves of my body
paints a fantasyland in my mind
You find the warmth which you call heaven
Your hand applies pressure as you taste my neck
You make me tremble with temptation
Sweet, sinful songs of sensual sensations
You've lit my whole world on fire
The flames dance through my body
filling me with insatiable longing
Falling open to your every desire
My heated body accomidating your every slow motion
Tender and timeless touches
A symphony played to perfection
Time stops, holding us in its ethereal hand
No words, just pure emotion and sensation
Our bodies, just a visualization of this dance of spirit
My reach for the heavens consumes me
Bursting, breaking, bending to the will of your desires
The world brightens, exploding with color around us
The fires quenched over and over in waves of warm wetness
Trembling upon the foundations of bliss, falling
Wrapping around you, taking from within you
Drinking deeply of your love
Slipping softly to the land of dreams
your warmed skin cooling beside me
A soft sigh of complete satisfaction
Your smile against my neck once more
There is no word for sensations felt so purely
There is nothing that compares to my love for you
and my amazement of the secure foundation you have placed...
For me.... for me... for me.... For you.
Foundations of bliss
At first she thought to quensch a thirst
her needful nature at its worst
he made her talk, he made her plead
But then fullfilled her every need
A bliss she found like none before
it left her wanting, always, more
Gold and white around their wrists
Her angels would be surely pissed
It happened fast, he found the key
he left no chance to destiny
he bound her giving heartfelt vows
within his eyes he showed her how
Her own words true, she didn't lie
he'd broken through her thin disguise
he made her feel the words she spoke
another vow this day- she broke
She loved them both, what could she do
BOTH could make her feelings true
she couldn't chose and yet she did
should she have truely run and hid?
Angel wings, soft words of trust
abondoned with her heated lust
But he had left her first, she cried
She never truely meant to lie.
Because she didn't know, he never came
perhaps he'd tired of her game
Her faith shattered, her heart was torn
The thought that he had left was born
And then stepped in her demon bard
who made restraint so very hard
he told her no, he would not play
and left her with her thoughts that day
But as he watched, she did enchant
to draw him in, to watch her dance
Her heart was torn, he knew this too
Her sadness breaking her in two
And his intent had been to soothe
he had no plans to catch the muse
he caught her though, and left no out
he binded her, and spoke no doubt
And in her joy she spoke vows too
not thinking this thing clearly through
and now she sits and can't believe
how hurt and torn her heart could be
She'd feel angel's anger and his pain
if ever they should meet again
she wouldn't lie, that plan was gone
Please! Not more chapters to her song...
But how could she explain to him
her heart was torn two ways again
An angel with a demon that he did hide
and a demon with a bard inside
Bound yet promised, crazed but still sane
she knew her heart could not do this again
She closed her eyes and wished to dream
she swallowed all her angry screams
The choice was made, she couldn't lie
He captured her within his eyes...
Every fantasy, every wish that she could see
revolved around his mysteries.
The bracelet warmed upon her arm
She prayed he'd never cause her harm
that he would love as he professed
and never leave her heart to guess...
*evil laughter*
Raba dreamed and slid away
the long awaited judgement day
but THIS was not the fated night
her soul lashed out, began to fight
she held on, her future bleak
all because her will was weak
a Dream had come to make her pay
for all the times her heart did play
a faint blue light drew her soul
to see her love, that was her goal
her eyes shot open, and she found
a broken demon on the ground
Not her love, confusion flashed
her eyes fill up, tears falling fast
in her mind Dreams words did ring
leaving wounds that burned and sting
she thought of all these things and more
she curled against him on the floor
she pieced together all she could
he helped her like he said he would
she tried to help, she tried to heal
he shook his head at her appeal
that he just needed time, he said
but still she feared he'd wind up dead
she curled up close to give him heat
the healing caused their souls to meet
crying still, she slipped to dream
safe for now, or so it seemed
when she finally stirred and woke
she listened to the words he spoke
he made her blush, he caused a smile
she begged he stay, for just a while
she felt safe while he was near
from all the nightmares that she feared
he made her wash, he made her dress
he turned his back, so not to test
He took the blood soaked tattered gown
that she had left upon the ground
In his eyes, his rage did flare
she couldn't hardly keep him there
with graceful tact, he said goodbye
her vengence written in his eyes
he truely knew how far she'd faded
how far her life had been debated
It left him weaker than he'd ever seen
just wait until he met with Dream
he soothed her soul, and then he flew
changing what she thought she knew.
Not all men would dare to tread
across her silky star lit bed
she trusted more because of that
thinking in the spot she sat
Her love would be home soon she knew
his claim of love WAS spoken true
She cast her gaze out to the skies
Dream had spoken only lies
her heart was pained, all knew this true
She moped some more, still feeling blue
he WOULD be back, and ALL would see
what true love could really be.
(03-15-05)
You tell me of your wish for me
that I should love eternally
and now I know that love -can- last
broke free now from my haunted past
For when you looked, your eyes did see
the mysteries concealed in me
when you touched I couldnt fight
these feeling that I knew were right
Merged darkness with my hidden dreams
for you -alone- I'm what I seem
Even darkness doesn't hide
the light from you, that grows inside
Your fire burns me...pleasantly
I've never felt this depth in me
secrets that I never knew
revolve around the joy of you
Always I begged, and was reassured
claims through love, all would be cured
always my eyes have strayed away
that's why yours -hold- mine this day
You know all about the little things
If you could hear- my spirit sings
If you could hear my heartbeat, too-
A symphony that's sung for you
You pulled so soft I didn't know
you make all those hidden feelings grow
You saw the love, but also pain
You brought acceptance to my reign
I can not turn my eyes from you
You've captured what you know is true
Another kiss with fate, it seems
but this one blesses all my dreams
Tears fill my eyes while you're away
now take from me - this judgement day
I'm reaching out to hear your call
Please take my hand, don't let me fall
Please hold me close so you can see
the joy that you have placed in me
How I rejoice in returning, too...
I'd give my every dream to you.
Instead of asking for my death
you give to me a newfound breath
You've forced my eyes to open wide
and give to you what lays inside
Now.
Tell me of your wish for me...