Friday 30th July 2004
#### it's like day 14 of the holidays and im nuff bored, ####### hell,been every place u can be norwood, sydenham, junction etc boredem. #### i just feel like writing...
Man no1 knows wat it is like for us. da ones who have to live in other people shadows. aint no1 knows wat its like being me. i wanna showt out my chik Dainty wer going through hard tym but lifes a test memeber.
This weeks been strange full of me having to justify myselt to dem haytaz hu dunt understand, to dem ppl hu wanna c me vex. man i wonder y ppl judge individuals by wats on da outside??? n if day do why? man #### being taken for granteed, i mean da ppl who have things...half of dem dont deserve it. Truesay i aint god, god knows wat he is doing, i kno his watching me and puttin me tru ####...to c ow tough i am but even im human it aint fair.u get me, ys dat person getting happy of my unhappiness? Haytaz dont make me weak but only for a second den i rise above wat i think impossible.
Man i was thinking today, i miss my ex hubby still, man i loved him yanna alot. alot alot. But dis yat just messed wit it....dis ppl dont know how i feel dese ppl dont know me. at all if day knew me day wudnt take happyness like dat. i wanna hug him, if anything i wanna tell him bout wat i been doing lol beefing n everything but i cant cos i dunno wer he is.i've gone from seein things yellow to just seeing things grey. ordinary. i dont get happy cos dares always sum1, not wanting me to be happy. i just stay thankful, cos ppl like me dont get happyness dat often we get put on da sidelines to watch other ppl. my gyal u kno hu u r, ur so dayum speshial, me n u, oneday truss me it'll beour turn lol i can feel it to dem heartbreakers den pwussyhole haytaz, day gunna eat our weave wen wer dun lol.its cummin... we've worked to dayum hard for this. we are da sweet wunz bubzy!!! I love u x hubby still. Happy Birthday and keep happy. always thinking of u...as hard as it maybe.
Problematik Kidd.###
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