at what cost does it come to one
who actually believes in something more..
love?
it's not real..its just a stupid stage
for people to get caught up in someone elses bullshit...
in fact, i have given and given until i'm bled out
nobody actually believes that i am capable of giving them what they need
however, i rarely see anything that might
resemble what i need..the basics..touch, the unconditional love.
oh and then there are those that will always
come first, you get the scraps of what's left over, and if you complain about it,
you're a whiner who just can't deal..
when in fact, you were fucked over
at the expense of another's laughter.
see you not only fucked my heart,
you fucked my soul, because i trusted you
to NEVER hurt me and you have,
so today i say thank you for showing me
that love is just as useless as hope.
03 decembre 2005
that gives way to useless ramblings
lies, hatred, and greed.......
filled with lust for wanting only that
which will never fully quench the thirst.
love of self is destructed by giving of one's self to nothing.
such a waste to want that which will never be.
4- 5- 2004
silence comes
in swarms of cold,
another night of lies.
deep within
the thoughts,
swirling mists of misery.
life is void
another trance
timed with the beats of hatred.
ripped and burned,
laying in waste,
rotted to be no more.
10-27-2004
you heard me giving up my last rights
to an existence i can never be a part of.
knowing i will never be touched the way
i need..
yet confined to be nothing more than just a shadow.
my final fall left me broken
shattered and bleeding within....
laying at the foot of man
waiting for my last dying breath...
to take me from this miserable hell.
to live once more is a mere fantasy,
a plague of the mind that knows better.
submitting only to that which calls me...
knowing i will always be a slave
03 novembre 2005
