| To my beloved Shinigami Eagle Vision, who passed on Monday, the 25th of February, after over three years of loyal and devout service as my favored pet and hamster muse. Rest in peace, my dearest heart, for no hamster gave more, was loved more, was cuddled and brought comfort more, or will be missed more. His departure lessens both me and my sister, the Lady Tomanaiya. Goodbye, my Shini�� You took a piece of our hearts with you. May this small offering be a tribute to your memory. Title: Goodbye Author: Lady DarkAngel [email protected] Archive: Lady DarkAngel's Gundam Wing Fanfiction Library http://www.geocities.com/ladydarkangel_1/index.html, Darkflame's (if she'll take it.) and anywhere else is fine, just ask me first Category: Angst, Dark, Deathfic Pairing(s): Use your imagination, mostly likely ?x2 or so Disclaimers: Gundam Wing or Shinkidousenki Gundam Wing is copyrighted and trademarked by Sunrise, Bandai, Sotsu Agency and associated parties with all rights and privileges. The characters were used without permission for the purposes of entertainment only. This is not meant for sale of profit. Any characters not created by those listed above are mine and hereby considered the sole property and copyright of the author. Anyway, I'm just a poor college student. So can I play with them? I promise I won't break them�� much. Rating: PG-13, I believe Warnings: Dark as sin. Angsty. POV piece. Death. Feedback: Kami-sama, YES!!! [email protected]; any and all comments are welcome like the sweet ego-sustainers they are. It�s so hard to watch you die. I�m holding you as tightly�� as gently as I can. You feel so fragile, so small�� I�m afraid I�ll break you if I squeeze too hard. But I need to touch you, to reassure myself that you�re still here. You�re too weak to move; your right side useless and in need of support, resting gently the nook of my pathetic comfort. I�ve tried to give you water but you can�t even open your mouth anymore though you�re desperate for it. I tried to slide it down your throat but I feared you choking; you can�t even swallow. I can feel your labored breath, you fighting for each pitiful lungful or air you can get. Wheezing, thing, painful gasps, getting further and further in-between. Not enough, not nearly enough�� I can feel the weak pom-pom of your heartbeat against my arms. My shaking hands can barely detect the faint beat. Once strong, now a shadow; the rhythm of life is losing its melody. Still there, but not for long�� You�re not conscious, not aware of what�s going on. And I think I�m grateful for that. I don�t want you to know this is happening. But how painful for me to not have you here at the end. I won�t get to say goodbye and have you understand. To say I love you and have it�� Your eyes�� those beautiful, soulful eyes�� They are closed but every so often, you open them for me. So I can see the glaze that now covers them instead of the bright sheen that I�m used to seeing. The empty gaze that lingers on nothing instead of the amused, loving look I wish for with all of my heart�� I almost wish to never see those eyes again, but when they close, I nearly cry out for them to return. Don�t leave me�� don�t leave me yet. You fight to stay. I can see that. You struggle in my arms for every second, every tick of the clock. But you�re losing. As much as it hurts me to admit it, you can�t win. You�re dying. You are DYING. And you�re taking my soul with you. I don�t want you to die! Stay with me! Don�t *leave* me! I�ll do anything, ANYTHING!!! Just for another day, another hour�� I�ll take another *minute* if that�s all I can get! An extension, a miracle! PLEASE!! ������������ I know it�s not coming. My denial grows thinner with every weakening beat. Fate is calling and there is no way to refuse. No reprise. No divine intervention. My heart weeps, my soul screams, my mind wails, my body shakes, me eyes�� A tear creeps down, the first of its kind. Many more will follow, till nothing of me remains but bitter salt and quaking flesh. My very being lies in my useless arms, fading away before me and I�m powerless to stop it. I know this. I mourn this. I bleed this. I live this. But please�� just a little more time. Just a little longer with my love. Put off goodbye a moment more. Fight. Breath. Live. Stay. Please don�t go�� ~ Owari ~ It hurts�� Dear God, it hurts�� *weeps uncontrollably* Lady DarkAngel ---------- �Neesan to Misuzu and A-chan Lady Protector of POVs in Hentai Onna-Gumi Chibi Duo's Babysitter Moderator of Duo's Sugar Intake Keeper of Duo's Nice Rear-end Co-Keeper of Shinigami's Wings (with Meela) Keeper of Heero's Homicidal Intentions Keeper of Quatre's Teacup Keeper of Trowa's Mask Keeper of Wufei's Sense of Honor Co-Keeper of Duo's Chatter (with Tomanaiya) Co-Keeper of Heero's "Hn" (with Tomanaiya) Co-Writer of Wufei's Rants (with Tomanaiya) Leader of the Inspirationally-challenged Muses: Alisande, Rynvi, and Kiagara Co-Keeper of real-life hamsters named Heero Yuy (Hee-chan) and Shinigami Eagle Vision (Shini Eagle)(with Tomanaiya) Keeper of the Hit List Proud Owner of two sets of chibis: Chibi Angel Duo and Heero in leather (twins of Tomanaiya's) and Chibi Angel Duo and Heero in black flight gear with stripes from the final GW episodes Acting GOD in Charge of The Anime Muse Adoption Center and WSCT of the AMAC Proud member of SDDI, the Society of Defending Duo's Intelligence Member of the Society Against the Complete Bastardization of Heero Yuy Occupant of the Happy Hentai House Master Hacker of the Shinigami Organization Assistant Mob Psychologist for the Shinigami Organization Founding Member of Saa-EEP!!! 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