| I wrote this a few minutes ago. Inspired by a drafty math room and a lingering headache. Which I still have. So I�ll keep this short. Not beta-read so forgive the mistakes. Title: Chill Author: Lady DarkAngel [email protected] Archive: Lady DarkAngel's Gundam Wing Fanfiction Library http://ladydarkangel_1.homestead.com/Main.html, Darkflame's (if she'll take it.) and anywhere else is fine, just ask me first Category: Angst, Dark, Death? Pairing(s): Use your imagination Disclaimers: Gundam Wing or Shinkidousenki Gundam Wing is copyrighted and trademarked by Sunrise, Bandai, Sotsu Agency and associated parties with all rights and privileges. The characters were used without permission for the purposes of entertainment only. This is not meant for sale of profit. Any characters not created by those listed above are mine and hereby considered the sole property and copyright of the author. Anyway, I'm just a poor college student. So can I play with them? I promise I won't break them�� much. Rating: PG-13, I believe Warnings: Dark as sin. Strange. POV piece. Feedback: Kami-sama, YES!!! [email protected]; any and all comments are welcome like the sweet ego-sustainers they are. I can feel a chill. It�s not from the wind that whips around me. The snow falls heavily on my shoulder but its cold cannot touch me. I long ago learned to ignore discomfort incurred from my surroundings. Very useful in my line of work. No, the cold I feel comes from somewhere I can�t hide from; somewhere no fire or heater can reach. It comes from inside. Do you know how cold I am? I guess not. After all, weren�t you the one who made me warm? Weren�t you the one who melted my ice and bathed in its waters? You took such great delight in watching as the freezing barriers I spent a lifetime creating came crashing down at your tender touch. Warmth is addictive, you know. Once you get a taste, the bite of winter gets more and more unbearable. You begin to crave its touch, do anything to stay in its lingering presence. You get desperate to keep it nearby. I did everything to keep you close to me. Anything and everything to make sure we would never be apart. I offered you my world and you accepted. And for a while, it was fine. We were warm together. Your touch banished the chill and I was learning to make my own heat. I was starting to believe that my future was nothing but warmth. I came home early because I missed your warmth. My addiction to you had grown out of my control and I couldn�t bear to be away from you for very long. I was only gone an hour, even though the trip was supposed to last all day. One hour. You were so surprised to see me, your eyes were panicked. So were his. You cried and pleaded and tried to get me to talk to you, all while standing wrapped only in soiled sheets while he ran for his miserable life. You grabbed my arms, got down on your knees and begged me. But I couldn�t hear you. The ice had returned with a vengeance, covering my eyes and ears to shield me. I realized then that the cold was not my enemy like I had always thought. It was protecting me from the traitorous warmth. Ice is personal and pure, clean for you and you alone. Heat is inconstant, and runs to the first place it can reach, regardless of where it was before. Ice is honest, it will kill you if you let it. But deceptive warmth lies and betrays, lending you on with promises and flees at a moment�s notice. I had an epiphany. Cold is so much better��. And now you�re cold too. So very cold, koi. Like me, no treacherous lying warmth will ever find you again. Forever icy, surrounded by the cold, cold ground. The snow will keep you safe from spring�s burning touch and insure that no heat will ever possess your heart again. I made sure of that. It�s getting late. The air grows more frigid by the minute. I�ll see you later. Stay frosty, my love. I know I will��. ~ ~ Owari ~ ~ I hate the cold. Hate it with a passion. And headaches put me in such a dark mood. Anyone care to guess who I was talking about? 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