Parting Ways
When the wind whispers
In such a lonesome voice
When the tears fall down
Though you rejoice
Remember to live
Remember to love
Be happy with who your are
And do not heed what others say
Because many will deter you
On your chosen way
Though the day falls into night
And though the stars fall down
If you ever find yourself in need of me
Just turn around
Though you may not believe
That this much is true
I have always cared
And I will always love you
Remember me in the summer breeze
When the bird song carries
Through the falling leaves
Just close your eyes
Let your memory revive
You'll find me there...
�Rebecca Lynn Oaks 6/15/99
I miss you, Grandma...
This Strange Longing
I said I�d never love again
That love was lost to me
That happiness was not my destiny
Yet this strange longing is haunting me
You walked in the door
Said things I�ve heard a thousand times or more
I want keep my heart off of the floor
But this strange longing has me wanting more
I�ll protect my heart
Friends first...no more...not yet...
If I ask for more, I�m sure to regret it
But this strange longing is urging me on...
This strange longing
Has a hold on me
I can�t see what I long for
I dread what it may be
Does it mean I�ll have to put
My heart upon the line once more?
Allow myself to be hurt as I have before?
Can I let this happen again?
Do I have the faith to believe
This time
I will find the one who was meant for me?
What does it mean
This strange longing
Do you feel it too?
Could it be
That you and I
Were meant for each other?
�RLO 1998
Longing
In the night
For passionate touches
Soft words
Warm embraces
Gentle thrusts
A slow dance
Into ecstasy...
�RLO 1998
In the moonlight
Of my dreams
I saw a face
I've never seen before
I knew it was you
The man I might love forever
If I allow myself
To love again
Perhaps you will wait for me
Perhaps you will not
Will we meet?
Is a question I dare not ask
Out of the fear
That you will remain
The man of my dreams
Not of my reality...
Forever...
�RLO 1998
Maybe I should just give up
After all, I can remember
How it felt to be held,
To be loved by you
Haunted by your touch
A passion I cannot escape
Your insisting mouth
And roaming hands
I look into your eyes
And I see your desire
Guiding yourself into me
My body said "yes," but my mind said "no"
You seduced me, I think
As you cradle me in your arms
In the aftermath
As the embers burn in the fireplace
My flesh trembles at your touch
As we kiss and explore
My body wants yours so much
As we move and merge again
In sweet seduction
I am trapped by your spell
Your black art has me pinned beneath you
As I come again and again
Alone in this bed
I can still smell you
My flesh cries out for yours
I cannot help it
I come to your door
You answer, your smile telling me you know
And you want what I want
Looking into your eyes, I whisper, �yes�
Laying in your arms
In the sweet aftermath at last
Feeling the raw bliss
That is no longer yours alone.
�RLO 1998
Slowly, we begin
That dance which has been
Since the beginning of time
I am yours
And you are mine
By our cries of passion
Delight
And sweet release
Now the whole world knows
�RLO 1998
I can still touch you
In my dreams I feel you close to me
Your body longing for my own
As I writhe on my bed,
Begging for your skilled hands
To touch me
To satisfy me
As I reach for you
To please you
As I long to be pleased
But it is a dream
And dreams are not reality
Yet I still dream
And long for the day
When dreams do come true...
�RLO 1998
Until We Meet
Anxiously, I await you
Anticipating your arrival
Nervously nibbling my nails
Startled by every sound
Trembling in anticipation
Of hearing that voice
Of seeing those eyes
Knowing how you make me smile
In spite of myself
And making me laugh
As I never have before
Even if you aren't handsome to some,
You will be to me
Because I love you
And I sit
Longing to touch you
Wanting to hold you
Needing to have you here...
Come, my sweet one
I await you...
�RLO 1999
Though we seem to click,
We don�t have much in common
Yet we seem to connect
In the best of places
And don�t you know?
That�s what love is!
We fill in the cracks
Of what the other lacks
Only time will tell
If we blend so well
That you and I could be soul mates
Who says we have to like the same things
To make two into one?
I�d be the first
To tell you that�s wrong
Because being the same
Is far from intruiging
It's a boring game
And ensures that romance
Won't withstand the dance.
I don�t want you to change
I like the way that you are
You don�t bore me a bit,
With your picking of knits
I need your strengths
And I�ll help you with mine
Perhaps we�ll find in each other
What we�ve been missing, in time...
�RLO 1/17/99 (Updated 11/18/00)
Eden
Staring at the sapphire sky
As the sun warms my naked flesh
The breeze touches me
Like a thousand gentle hands
I lie on the emerald ground
Soft grass, better than a feather bed
As the puffy white clouds drift on
Blissfully ignorant of human cares
The rose bush is bowed over
With heavy burgundy blooms
Filling the air with their sweet heady fragrance
Velvet petals gliding to the ground
The shy flowers of the garden
Do not neglect to make their presence known
The modest violet, pale tuberose, flags, and iris too
Lily of the Valley, flowering almond, and tulips of midnight blue
The sun descends like a drop of blood
Blue sky turning velvet black
Stars appear like ice-cold diamonds
As I rise to join you in the silken softness of our bed...
�RLO 1/18/99
In Your Arms
In your arms
I feel secure
And I dream
Of your touch
On my naked flesh
Lost in your eyes
Watching your lips
As we whisper
Sweet nothings to each other
And our souls merge
To fill each other
You�re the one I�ve wanted
And waited for so long
I need you here with me
So we can be together
Though we never are apart
Because I have you in my heart
But I want to be safe
And secure
In your arms
�RLO 1/15/99
In my mind
I can feel you
Holding me
As I tell you all that�s in my heart
While we talk on the phone
I know that you care
And can sense what I�m feeling
Maybe it�s instinct
But maybe it�s love
I�ve never had anyone love me
As you have, my dear
And I�ve never felt such longing
As when I long for you
You move my mind
And you light my heart
I�m a butterfly
When I talk to you
The happiness you give me
Makes me weep with joy
Knowing you care
And love my in spite of my faults
Don�t you know
I�m a hopeless romantic?
And I�m telling you now
You already have my heart...
�RLO 1/17/98
I�ve never felt
Such a wave of love
As I did last night
When you held me tight
I lose myself in your eyes
My heart pounding loudly
As I run my fingers through your hair
And feel your warmth around me
I wonder if you know
If you can feel me throbbing
When you hold me like this
And I see that look in your eyes
I feel you
So close and real
Our breaths mingling
As we work up the nerve
To exchange our first kiss
�RLO 1/18/99
At night
I touch you
At night
I feel you
Your warm breath
Burning my breast
Making my heart quake
Making my body ache
To be one with you
And only one with you...
�RLO 1/18/99
I sit here typing
Alone and wounded
Crystal heart
Shattered again
We would sit
And talk for hours
You were an angel
My favorite friend
Dreams of true love
For our broken hearts unbound
And now we wonder
At the joy that we've found
Just holding each other close
Being there to hold onto
Though we are so far apart
I love you as a friend at least
And I hope I never break
Your crystal heart
�RLO 4/27/99
I Remember
I remember
The brush of your fingers
On my cheek
And through my hair
And I tremble still
I remember
Placing a hand on your shoulder
As we watched the pirhanas swim
And you sang "Lean on Me"
In your rich baritone
I remember
Looking into eyes so clear
Deep blue
With a touch of violet
And seeing something there
That I�ve never seen before
I remember
Looking into a mirror
Sunburnt and makeupless
And feeling like
The most beautiful woman in the world
�Rebecca Lynn Oaks 4/11/99
Thank you for giving me that feeling...
The Foresaken Maiden
I waited for the weary knight
In bloodstained armour to come home
To his lonely castle
And I watched from my dirty hovel
I never thought he'd take notice
Of a humble young maiden
In such an unworthy home
But he whispered to me
When all of my romances failed
He was the balance
That kept my heart alive
He helped me to survive
But now that he's come home
Sorrow and nightmares
Haunt his handsome lined face
I heard his whispered prayers
For a maiden fair and true
One with a crystal heart like his
One from a dream come true
I heard his pleas in the night
Saw his silent stare
I led him to my humble hovel
To my little maiden's bed
And there
Together
We made the word love
Blossom and bloom
�Rebecca Lynn Oaks 4/30/99
Verboten
and we dance
like the reeds in the windstorm
sometimes close
sometimes far
but still we dance
the eternal dance of life
you say you don't like to dance
but in this life
there is no choice
the steps are laid out there
and the path is meant to be taken
when karma runs over your dogma
I am being myself now
all childish fears and neuroses
knowing I can stand alone
but wanting to be held
doing lines of poetry
like so much cocaine
while flashes of you crawl through my mind
(it's so lonely in the dark)
and I smile
thinking of things forbidden
how that tingle over the phone
could be the magician's illusion
and how I'd like to kiss those lips
once hidden in facial hair
tasting the smoke in your mouth
while I look in the mirrors of your eyes
and I hear you calling me beautiful
as I close them and pray to the gods that be
that your words are not an illusion
that what I feel is real
and not the childish desires of ages past
when I didn't know what I want
I've sinned
I've laid in the arms of another man
Calling out a name
That was not his at all
Only because I saw you in him
I thought if I couldn't have you in whole
I'd have you in part
Selfish
Shallow of me
But all things work out for the good of those who love the Lord
And the Lord knows that I love you
And no one else will do
Magician, I beseech you
Come out of the shadows
To the one who loves you
But trembles to tell you so
Ere you disappear again
I know you are far from perfect
and I never claimed I was
but perhaps in time we will find
that which is perfect for us
I hope that it will be you and I
but I would settle for nothing less
than to see your happiness
first
and then I'll see to my own
But one day we'll stop pretending
Then all shall be known
You are my passion
The tingle in my Latin blood
The being that urges me to cast away the pain in my past
and start anew
perhaps alone
perhaps with you
but it is a dream we've always shared
and I've always know how you've cared
for all who affect your heart in such a way
and I wish I could tell you that I love you today
but I can't
I'm still afraid
I don't want to hurt you
and I don't want to be alone
you are the one who keeps me awake at night
Magician
captor of my heart
I must know how you feel
through the stone walls
and scarlet-singed dreams
forgive me for loving you
and not being able to speak the words...
�RLO 1999
The Dream
Laying awake
Bourbon-soaked sheets crying
Lover lover please
take me in the night, angel
Moaning in the fantasy of
Opening these soft thighs
Let me kiss you rain-soaked
From the night
And too much coffee
Boiling on your breath
The sacred burning need
Overrides my need for
Minty fresh taste
From a man who looks good
In a t-shirt and jeans
Spouting philosophy
Like a backwoods preacher teaching the flock
On a cool summer evening
Beaded sweat falling down
Sitting like dewdrops in the valley
Of the rising and falling mounds
I see your tongue dart down
To lap up the water
Like a salt-starved deer
Looking up at me with startled eyes
Yes yes
Keep tasting and touching
Like instinct animal
Smelling your sweat
The smell of the soap from this morning
As I run my fingers through your hair
Breathing rough and heavy now
The discovery channel's got nothing on you
Like an endangered species
Curious about the act
No longer fumbling
But the wonder still there
Holding your shoulders
While we become whole
Just looking in your gentle eyes,
Just touching you
That is all I need to be happy
But I'll never get enough of your love
"I love you"
Drowned out by the buzzer
The dream of the magician
Is over too soon
�RLO 1999
Summoning
Slide savage tongue down gliding
Deep in the valley
Just like the pic on the bodice ripper
Wild captain and sweet maid
Take me captive again
Sweet savage
Soft deep roll of thunder call me home
Through happy drops of rain
and color and light guide me home again
Like a wild bird returning to her nest
when the snakes have eaten her eggs
One time mates
When I want to mate forever
Bind me in chains, my lover, my brother
I've made mistakes before
I don't want to be wrong anymore
Wind blowing soft down
The billowing gold sail of my hair
Hands raised in supplication
To the God of love and war
One hand reaching for the phone
The other slapping it down
To afraid to call
The hands then swing around
thinking of reasons to love you
and reasons not to fall
But still I'm drowning in your eyes
Like a watercolor melting in the rain
I can't raise my defenses
Though I should
I want to come home to you
And still I hear you calling to me
In the echo of a distant rumble of thunder
I don't want to tell you
because I don't want to hurt you
but still I want to touch you
my eyes mutely cry for you
much as they cry for all I've lost
or been lost in
and I find myself lost in you
�RLO 1999
Body Worship
Let my lips whisper
In silent prayers silken
Against your engorged member
Bringing soft winds shuddering
Against your quivering skin
Let my tongue dance
In a sensual slide
Catching you just below the tip
Dancing dizzy circles
Down below the root of you
Let my mouth surround you
Like the heat and wetness
From the deepest core of my being
Taking in as much of you as I can, love
Taking you to your root
Let me taste you now
Release the juices
Of your passion spent
Let me relish each drop of love
Before I swallow it all
Let me lay beside you
And hold you close to me
Until the need comes upon you again
And again we do the deed
�RLO 1999
Last Modified: 11/18/2000 by Rebecca L. Oaks
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