I guess it's time for me to put into my thoughts pages that Jim and I are no longer dating. At this point we are going to be just friends. I have no reason to sit here and bash him. He's been nothing but truthful to me about how he's felt and what he's been thinking the whole time. I also have no reason to sit here and bash myself. I didn't lie to him, or treat him bad. All I have that contributed to it is my demons. My way of doubting myself and everyone around me. It's something that I've always known about. Something that I've always done. But this is the first time it stopped me from being with someone I want. Jim is a good man. Observant and smart about things. He sees something in my being that way that could jeopardize anything that him and I are to build. And looking back on my other relationships I tend to believe him in that. Over the last 2 days I've thought about what he said and looked for things in my previous relationships. I can see now that my being that way may have played a part. My first personal goal for now is going to work on that. Work on not doubting everyone and everything. Be confident. Yeah, that's the ticket. lol.