I was talking to a long time friend tonight about "Love" and what his meaning of it is. He tells me it's a feeling of being more "ALIVE" around that person (and other things, I don't remember everything he said). And truth be told. I don't think I've ever felt that way toward anyone. I've been doing a lot of thinking today. About things I've done, things I haven't done, things I'd like to do, how I am, how I'd like to be, and what I need to do to change that. I have many demons that haunt me daily. I need to work on them. That's easier said then done though. I'm thinking meditation is my best rout to go. Just sit and think about what I can do. I have things in my life that I'd like to remember, but just can't find a way. I'm going to MAKE a way. It needs to be done and I'm going to do it. It may take me a long time to get my mind in the way it should be but it will be time well worth spending.