I've been thinking a lot today about other things that Jim has said to me again. It kind of goes along with my last thought. He's said things to me about him not looking elsewhere and that I'm not looking elsewhere either. When he said about him not looking it seemed like that was ok and what he wanted. But, when he said about me not looking elsewhere it seemed to me like he thought I should be. I know he's not ready for any kind of commitment. And that's fine with me. He's not ready for love. And that's fine too. What confuses me is what his description of what a relationship is fits what we've been doing these last few weeks. So what does that mean? What is he saying? He says that we haven't made any kind of verbal agreement on being exclusive. True. But why say that you don't want something that in reality you are actually living? I don't want him to think I'm pushing him into something that he doesn't want. I don't want to do that in anyway. I enjoy being with him. But if he stops enjoying being with me then something needs to be done. I'm not sure what to think at this point. After talking to my sister briefly about this she said that we should take a week apart from each other. Maybe she's right. I'll have to talk to Jim about it when I talk to him again. Sometimes I wish life had a manual that went with it.