This is what… the second or the
third day I’ve gone WITHOUT talking to my best gal pal! And you know something,
Kara?? I think I’m about to go out of my mind. I’ve been finding myself pacing
around the house trying to find something to occupy my time. So far I’ve done
ALL of my homework except for a research paper research and… one chapter of
reading in my textbook. That’s pretty good progress, I think! But then again,
that’s where you can see I’ve pretty much had nothing to do!
I called CLARK to see if he’d let
me TALK to you But that Didn’t get far.
“Can I talk to Kara?”
“She’s grounded, Barbara.”
“I know, but…. I have something
to TELL her! It’s kinda important.”
“What is it?”
“……….it’s a girl thing. You
wouldn’t understand.”
I could hear him smiling on the
other line. “Try me.”
“It’s about sex.” I bluntly
stated. But of course, he KNEW there was a small bit of fib in there.
“OUT with it, Barbara.”
“PLEASE Clark!?? I’m going out
of my mind over here! This is like—the longest time I haven’t talked to her!”
“I’m sorry, you know I can’t do
that.”
Clark’s SO sweet sometimes, but
then when he says “No” he really means it! He’s like Bruce. He just has that
bit of authority to him. Oh, man. Did I tell you what Bruce DID to me?? You
prolly already know about that support group thing I’m being forced to go to,
right? Yeah, well—he was REALLY brutal this week! He wheeled me into the hall
that’s just outside of the meeting room. “DON’T.”
“Barbara. We’ve talked about this
already. You HAVE to attend the meetings.”
“No.” I’m sorry—but you know how
I am with that damn chair. Bringing me into the building with it was bad
enough, but taking me into the actual session?? Nuh uh. After some pouting he finally
took me in WITHOUT it and sat me down second row center. WHICH I didn’t want! MY
place is in the back, but grr him!
An then—do you know what he did??
He smiled that half-evil smile he sometimes shows. “I’ll see you in two hours.”
And then he LEFT!! I was stuck where I was and he was gone! I honestly don’t think
he LEFT left, but he definitely wasn’t in the room.
I had to fend for myself from that
point on. I propped my legs up onto the empty seat next to me and just tried to
look elsewhere. Some woman tried to get me to bleh—talk to her and tell her my name,
but that didn’t happen. And YES, I know that I SHOULD have said something—but I’m
just not comfortable talking to STRANGERS about… well, YOU know!
Can I ask ya something? I know that
Dick, Wally, Bruce, you, Donna, Garth, and Tim know what happened to me, but that’s
IT right?? Do you know if Bruce and Dick told my dad about it… or the whole… gun
incident????
ANYWAY… I’ve been having some weird
dreams lately, but then again, I always have weird dreams… There was this one with
Lex Luthor in it right?? And heh—me and him were at one point making out and on
this airplane going to Alaska. Haha! Isn’t that weird!? And no, it wasn’t LEX Lex—not
PRESIDENT Lex…. Okay, well yes it was. But he was like… young! Like 29 and THIN
and… *VERY* hot. Muahahaha! YEEEAH, you know who I’m talking about!
Ummm… other things, other things…
OH! About twenty minutes ago, we got a call. Heehee! And Eveyln JUST went into labor!
She called Wally knowing that he would be faster than the medics… So, that’s where
they’re at now. I don’t know how long they’ll be there, but—just as an update, I
thought I’d tell ya!
That’s about all that happened, from
what I can think of/remember. I didn’t know what else to do around here! Just do
me one huge BIG favor, please???? COME online! I miss you SOOOOOOOO much! It’s just
so boring without you! When you DO decide
to show, I’ll be here, you know that! Okay? Be good, Kara!
BG
11:29pm, 3~14~2002