Date: May 3, 2001

 

Time:  21:30pm (9:30pm)

 

Case #00-0004

 

WHY do things have all of a sudden work against me? Why, when I try to help PROTECT someone I always get something pushed back in my face. WHY am I always being pushed away by the ones I love?! Last night—everything seemed to collide into one huge dysfunctional mass. I was… glad—you know just TALKING to Kara like I normally do. I think I was telling you about things earlier—telling me about how she and Clark went to the ball game, a few jokes going back and forth. Well I guess at one point she caught sight of that pill bottle that Dr. Leslie gave me for my back… and kept trying to find out if something was wrong. Well, I’m sure you know how I usually am—won’t tell ANYONE how I really am feeling, just simply because I don’t want to worry them. But…anyway WALLY comes up behind me kinda tapping on my back—a little harder than he probably intended to and as sore as my back was—I screamed out in pain.

 

                I guess that triggered SOMETHING and it freaked Kara out, not to mention Wally as well. He… found traces of blood on my shirt, I guess I had bled through my bandages… again, and with THAT—Kara came over like—ten seconds later. They found out what happened. I tried to keep it from them, thinking that it might upset them… but they DID find out. They both—freaked.. Kara got—SO upset she left. I tried to reason with her, tried to apologize for my actions, but nothing seemed to filter out. I was.. too upset, in tears from it all. We’ve.. never FAUGHT before, and to tell you the truth, the whole ordeal scared me.. to death. She told me not to call, not to get in touch with her AT all. Though, you know me. I never listen. I got home, tried to call her. Been trying ALL day today—but I keep getting nothing.

 

                She’s… like a sister to me. I.. love her, dearly. I can’t loose her— She’s ALWAYS been there for me. Remember that time we went up between Livewire, Poison Ivy, and Harley Quinn?? She HELPED me through that—saved my life. I couldn’t EVER thank her enough for it =o)

 

 

I can’t get in touch with her. Arugh! This is.. worrying me. …maybe a little too much? I can eat, can’t sleep—but then again I never COULD sleep. Even with Wally at my side it’s… been rough. I’ve been trying to occupy myself, took my phone with me everywhere I went. Kept trying to get a hold of the girl, but nothing—I had to pass up the opportunity to go fishing with Dick and Tim today…the pain from the wound only seemed to grow with every opposing second. So I stayed in—watched Survivor.

 

Well.. the one I was rooting for, Colby—m’ Cowboy—didn’t win the game. But.. Tina did. I guess… it’s all right. She did her part—and PROVED her point. The Survivor reunion show’s on now.. Maybe this’ll occupy me enough to get my mind off of things…. I NEVER thought this could be so hard. Is it WRONG of me to worry?

 

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Everything’s calm and quiet. The sounds of the television have… died out. The sound of running water is now amidst. Maybe a refreshing bath will help calm the nerves?? The only thing is: I have to be careful of the water level now. It can’t be too high—it… can’t touch the wound… LESLIE and Bruce told me anyway. I can’t ignore this one.. wand other have been making sure that—OOH no. I hope to the GODESS he’s not splashing water on the floor. Wally was kind enough to stay with me all day he drew the bath water. From the splashing in the background I can only guess is that he’s waiting or…PLAYING with that little yellow duck of his. He’s too sweet, but let’s just hope my carpet doesn’t suffer after all of this goes down.

 

As soon as I get out, I’m going to try to contact Kara again. MAYBE she’ll answer… maybe not. I’ll… find out VERY soon. I just hope… I can reach her in time—before something REALLY bad resorts from all of this. I guess the only thing I can say is: “I’ll keep you posted.”

 

 

The natives are definitely getting restless. Bath time—I guess.

 

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